Date started: 2020
Date finished:
Losing the things you've work hard for years is scary. To imagine that the cards you stack and built everyday, little by little, may face it's downfall in just a blink of an eye, is indeed very depressing. Anxiety and worry are normal emotions when you're in the verge of losing everything.
Yes, those are the normal and expected emotions I should feel today giving everything that's happening, but that doesn't seem to be the case.
"And how do we get away with this?" my mother's voice is what woke me up from my deep thoughts.
Kanina ko pa siya pinagmamasdan na palakad-lakad sa harap ko. Natataranta sa mga nangyayari at hindi na magawang umupo habang panay pa rin ang pindot sa kaniyang cellphone.
Since the news broke earlier she's already hysterical. I tried my best to calm her but to no avail, and I understand why she couldn't afford to calm down right at this moment. Indeed everyone will loses their shit when greeted with such news early in the morning.
Well, except for me.
I roamed my eyes to the whole room and stop at the person standing on the veranda desperately trying to call someone on his phone. Like my mother, he is also panicking.
"Alam mo ba kung nasaan siya?"
From here, I can hear his frustration, na halos pagbuntungan na nga ng galit ang kung sino mang kausap sa kabilang linya.
Everyone's busy trying to contact someone, even in my peripheral vision I saw my PA and stylist looking so worried while holding their phones. The only people who seemed unbothered by the situation is me and my sister who's quietly sitting on the opposite direction while observing everyone.
"Mamamatay ako ng maaga sa batang ito! jusko!" ani no'ng manager ko at mula sa veranda ay pumasok na siya loob na agad namang sinalubong ni mommy ng mga tanong.
"So where is he? Did he answer your call? what did he say?" she just couldn't wait to hear anything from him.
"Hindi pa rin! I think he purposely turn his phone off!"
I nodded my head nonchalantly.
That's expected already. He knows what's coming, at kahit ako ay itu-turn off ko talaga ang cellphone ko kapag alam kong any minute ay pwedeng bombahin ito ng tawag mula sa iba't ibang tao.
I wanted to suggest that they should let this pass and give Louie sometime before talking to him, it's obvious that he didn't want to face this right now, so trying to reach him is pointless when he's also trying to get away with it on his end. And surely he would reach out to us on his own when he's ready.
Pero alam kung hindi makokontento ang manager, si mommy at ang station company sa gano'n. They wanted an answer now so they could think of a possible solution to fix this mess as early as possible, before it could cause more damage to our respective careers.
"Zericia," they were seriously discussing for five minutes when my mom called me out of nowhere. And she had this suspicious look on her face.
"May alam ka ba tungkol dito?" Nanliit ang mga mata niya.
My eyes widened at her sudden question. I was quiet all along to avoid any interrogation but mom as my mom, felt like I knew something.
"H-huh?"
They all turned to me to see my reaction. Si Dara na busy sa phone ay tumigil para lang matingnan ako. They're all waiting for whatever I have to say.
I looked away. I don't know how to explain it dahil for sure magagalit sila sa akin, for keeping it a secret. And I don't think I'm ready to face it yet. At isa pa, hindi dapat sa akin manggaling ang eksplenasyon.
