The Chronicles Of A Busy Brain- Shawmila

The Brutal Art Of Bleeding (Part 2)

Pulling the zip closed on his final bag, Shawn looked around his room and sighed. This was really it, this was really goodbye to everything he had known and the fact that he felt nothing as he considered everything that he was leaving behind only confirmed to him that he had made the right decision.

A gentle knock at the door pulled him from his morose thoughts and he called out to whoever it was that they could enter. The shame filled face of Katherine was not what he was expecting to see or in the mood to deal with

"Shawn I'm really sorry"

Pulling a breath deep into his chest, Shawn nodded his understanding before turning back to his closed bag, picking it up and throwing it next to the others

"You're leaving?"

"I'm going to stay with Jay for a while, just until I work out what I want to do"

Taking a seat on the edge of his bed, Katherine observed the 3 bags before her. This was really happening, she was really losing him, and just when she had so much that she wanted him to know. Was the timing right for her to open her heart to him now? Would the timing ever be right to make such a declaration?

"I can't believe how I behaved earlier, can you ever forgive me?"

Fiddling with the watch on his wrist Shawn struggled to look the woman he had thought to be a friend in the eye

"I can't believe that you've been around through this entire thing with Camila and then you'd just throw it in my face like that... and in front of everybody"

"I didn't mean to, it was just such a shock... I'm so, so sorry"

Spotting a plane ticket lying on the dark green duvet cover Katherine picked it up as Shawn paced across the floor and paused by the window. Lifting up a small black photo frame that still held a picture of him with Camila he sighed as though the world was weighing heavily on his shoulders

"I tried to throw this out the other day... 10 minutes later it was back on my window sill, I guess I'm still not ready to let go"

"Um... Shawn?"

Placing the frame back on it's resting place Shawn turned to find Katherine staring at the tickets he had earlier discarded

"I thought Jay lived in Fort Lauderdale, this is for Miami... doesn't Camila live in Miami?"

"I bought them just after Christmas, I was supposed to go and stay with her for spring break, we discussed it the last time I spoke to her on the phone. I just don't get it Kat... she was so excited at the thought of us having some time alone together, y'know without our parents. How could that change so quickly?"

Staring at the tickets, Katherine couldn't help the jealousy that filled her. Shawn had bought them so he and Camila could spend time together... alone in her apartment, the implications of that stung and not for the first time since it arrived, she was thankful for text message.

"People change Shawn"

"Over night?!"

Turning around Shawn gazed at the photo and felt the clouds of confusion begin their descent. Looking at Camila smiling out at him he felt the turmoil left by unanswered questions grip hold of his heart and begin twisting