Broken

Leap of faith

The rope is tied,
The pills are open.
The knife is sharpened,
And I am broken...

I'm standing beside the bench. My rope is tied to the tree, with a loop and nothing in it. The pills were sitting with three in the lid. And then there's my mum knife she uses for cutting roast beef or something, but that wasn't what was getting cut today...

My eyes was blinking back and forth, trying to make a decision but then I finally chose the rope. I realised that it would be too hard to stab myself and I wasn't sure if the pills would be enough to make me go. I placed the knife on the floor and put the pills back in container then placed them down on the ground. I stepped up onto the bench and took a deep breath, I knew there was no going back after this, that this would be it. I closed my eyes and counted to 10. I,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9. I put my head through the loop. 10.  jumped... The rope swung and my face came to look at my sister who was walking down the street, she seen me. She ran as quickly as she could over to me and started crying, she phoned my mum and tried to get me down. She untied the knot and I fell to the ground, I was unconscious and my sister dropped to floor placing her head on my as the tears ran down her face.

My mum arrived and she couldn't stop crying, she ran to me and held me as I regained consciousness again. I had never seen her like this. I told her I was fine but she still called an ambulance, the paramedic asked what I had been doing.

"I was um... just playing around when I um... Slipped." I knew he could see through the lie. The ambulance left and told me to take it easy for the next few days. I went back to the bench to get the knife, rope and pills after I thought my family had left.
"What are you doing?" My sister asked whilst watching me. "I know you weren't just playing." She added. I said nothing and continued to collect my things.
"Are you still going to go through with it?" She asked again.
I ran... I simply ran from her.
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Sorry it's not very long