Broken

Struggle

We shared our stories,
I could not forget.
The battle scars were shown,
My thoughts became a threat.

I couldn't stop thinking about Laurie, I wouldn't see her for a few more days and I hadn't been coping. I thought about my rope... Ah, my trusty rope, it was much better than people, it could take my pain away and it was always be there when I needed it the most. I took the rope out and put it around my neck, it felt surprisingly comfortable so I just left it there for a while. Hour after hour, I pulled the rope tighter until it was starting to hurt... A lot. Again, I tightened the rope and now I was starting to feel rather dizzy. Quickly, I took the rope off and threw it under my bed, my mum was coming upstairs and into my room.
"Dinners ready when you are," my mum told me.
I replied, "Thanks mum, I'll just be down." After I finished my dinner I came up and went straight to my bed, it was a long day and all I would do was think about Laurie.

I woke up and realised it was Saturday so I texted Laurie asking her if I could come over, I didn't get I reply so I decided to go anyway. As I reached her door, I noticed her dads car wasn't there, I knew her mum always was working at this time and I presumed her dad was if his car wasn't there. I walked into her house and made my way to her door, I walked in and the she was. Hanging from the ceiling, I dropped to the floor and cried, I sat there for an hour, sitting in a ball just crying. As I finally picked myself up, I seen the note on her dresser and decided to read it.
Dear everyone,
The start was to her mum, dad and little sister so I didn't read it, then came my name at the bottom.

Thomas... The days have gone when we used to be free, the days of young and the days of our innocence. I know how you feel right now and I want you to stop, I know you'll be crying but there's no need because I'll be feeling much better. Promise me no matter what you'll stay where you are and won't join me, I gave up but I know you're stronger. I love you and always will, even after I'm done. Goodbye old friend, I hope I won't see you for a while...

The note ended and I found myself still crying. Abruptly, I punched a hole in the wall and suddenly I heard footsteps racing up the stairs until suddenly they stopped and the door swung open.

AAAAHH... Laurie's mum (Katy) screemed in a high pitch, ringing through my head in the terror in front of her eyes and fell on her knees. Katy was like a second mother to me as my mum was to Laurie. Seeing her, I ran over to Katy and we held each each other tight, we lay for hours crying until we both fell asleep on Laurie's floor.

Hours later, John (Laurie's dad) came in and as usual, slammed the door shut, sighed and shouted on Katy. I arose as John came in and woke Katy up, she jerked a bit as she adjusted herself. I almost forgot about what had happened to Laurie, thinking the whole thing was a dream although as I turned around I realised it wasn't - I even pinched myself just hoping I was still dreaming.

Rushing, down the stairs, Katy brought John into the living room to speak to him about what happened. I could only hear small parts of what they were saying.

"She's what?" John raised his voiced and it cracked in pain.

"I know, I still can't believe what's happened myself," Katy trying hold back from crying again.

John tried to stay strong for his wife but he couldn't any longer and tears started pouring down his face as he ran to his daughter's room. His worst nightmare came true, what Katy had seen was true, Laurie was dead and there's nothing he could do to change it. I sat in the corner of the room until I decided to stand up and show them the note I had earlier read.

With his hand almost touching her face, John put his hand up to her cheek as if to grasp it however he didn't actually touch her, he kept his hand just a few centimetres away as a tear ran down his face. And another. And another. Until he was sobbing completely which I'd never seen before.

I spent the whole night in Lauries room as I couldn't bear to leave her. Jack and Katy went through to their room but they didn't sleep, I could hear them pacing and discussing what to do in between bursts of long sobs. I couldn't sleep at all knowing she was just there although I didn't dare to touch her.

I walked home once the sun had risen and entered the house woth only my mum in it, she was in the kitchen looking to see what she was going to make for dinner however I felt sick and knew I wasn't going to be hungry. I ran up into my room and jumped into my bed without taking my shoes off and burried my head in my pillow sealing it with my hands, dribbling even more tears into it.

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Sorry I took so long, next chapter will be my last one to anyone that's still reading ✌