I'd Never Live » Luke Hemmings

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Luke's Pov
"Why? Why the hell would she do that!?" I scream, ripping pillows apart.

"Why don't you ask her yourself?" Michael snaps.

"Because she fucking hates me! News flash! Why do you think I have stayed in my room all month?!" I screech.

"Well maybe, you should grow a pair of balls, and go fucking talk to her!" Michael screams back at me.

"Lucas." Calum says quietly. "How much do you love Marie?"

"I love her so much, that its hard to explain. I feel like I could tell her anything, and it would all be okay." I say, wiping away the tears that are streaming down my face.

"I don't think you do." He says.

"What the hell Cal?!" I shout.

"Think about it. If you really loved her, you would go see what happened." Calum says gently.

"You know that saying, 'If you really love someone, you would put your feelings before yours, because you care about theirs more than yours?' " I ask.

Cal, Ash, and Mikey all nod.

"That's exactly what I'm doing." I say.

"Wow. That's not the Lucas I know." Calum says.

"What do you mean?"

"You know damn well that she wants you. You heard it yourself. Yet, you have stayed away from her for a month. You saw the cuts on her wrist, but are ignoring her like nothing happened. I bet those cuts are from you, mate." He says.

I stand up and bolt out of the room. I run out of the house, and take off down the streets. Luckily, her house is only five minutes away.

When I get to her house, I fling the door open, and run to her room. She's laying on her bed, curled up into a ball. I slowly walk over to her, and sit on the bed next to her. Her head picks up a little bit, but flings down right away.

I pick her up, and place her on my lap. Without hesitation, she locks her arms around my waist, and buries her head into my chest. I wrap an arm around her, and with the other, I pet her hair.

"Why?" I asked her very quietly.

"Uh. Well, you cheated on me, and-and I blamed myself for it." She whimpers.

"Mar. No. No no no. I would never cheat on you, in a million years.You are the best thing that has ever happened to me. And even if I were stupid enough to cheat, it wouldn't be your fault! You are
A beautiful girl and a perfect girlfriend." I shush her.

"And, and, I knew you guys were back in town, but no one came to see me. I thought no one cared." She cries.

"Shh. Love, the do care. More than anything. It was me keeping them back." I say.

"Why? Why Luke?" Marie says, whilst yawning.

"I should go. I'll explain soon enough." I kiss the top of her head, and place her under the covers. I tuck her in, and walk over to the door.

"Luke?" She asks.

"Mar?" I ask back.

"Thank you." She smiles.

"No. Thank you. You are an amazing drawer." I smile and walk away.
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Marie's Pov
Amazing drawer? What? What was he talking about? I shrug it off as I fall asleep.

My eyes snap open, and my body flings forward. The drawer! I run over to the drawer where I placed the picture of his face. On top of it, was a letter. I opened it up and read it.

Mar,
I know you will find this all hard to believe, but I promise you, it's all true.

First, I didn't cheat. Annah was at a show, and asked for a kiss. Right away, I declined, but she made a scene about, 'Declining a fan.' The guys came over and asked what happened. Things got a little crazy, and so I decided that if I did kiss her cheek, that she would leave. I have never been more stupid. -Scratch that. I have. But just wait.- She turned her head at the last second, and kissed me. Believe me when I say this, that kiss was hell. I guess when you find the right person, and kiss them, no one compares.

Anyway, so she sent you the picture, and that's where things got out of hand.

Second, the guys all miss you. A lot. I'm the one who kept them back. When I left your house, I literally stayed in bed all day long, everyday. It was the same, endless cycle. Wake up, go to the bathroom, be brought food, only eat two bites, throw it up, fall asleep, and it repeats. The boys wanted to see you, but I guess when you have a depressed 17 year old, you can't let him out of your sight.

Finally, I love you. You may not believe me, but I am so sorry. I can't imagine being with anyone else. I really can't. You change everything when I look at you. The world stops, and I forget to breathe. Nothing compares. I wish there were enough words to describe how I feel, but it is unexplainable.

I'm really sorry. I hope you can forgive me. I need you back, Mar. I need my snuggle buddy back. Calum doesn't like cuddling with me anymore. :-( please.

I love you,
Luke x

I quickly run out of my room, and take off towards Luke's house. When I get downstairs, and open the front door, a bag sits in front of it. I open it up, and there is a coffee, and some cookies. I smile to myself, before remembering what I have to do. I place the drink and cookies on the table, and run out the door.

When so make it to Luke's house, I throw the door open. Michael and Calum are playing FIFA, while Ash is watching.

"Luke. Is he here? Is Luke here?" I pant.

"No. He told me to tell you, that you know where to find him. And grab that coat. I guess where ever you are going, might get chilly." Ashton says, smiling.

"Thanks." I breathe, then I grab the jacket and run. I know exactly where he will be.