In the dark

0.5 apologising

Nate Ryan^

It was finally the day I was dreading the most. I had to meet Nate Ryan.

Right now I'm standing in front of the mirror, and all I could point out were my flaws.

Is it true? Do I really need to lose more weight?

When I was in eighth grade, there were these girls who were really popular and they had took me to be in their group.

They would always point out my flaws and insult me in front of everybody. They would make me feel really bad about myself. And when I stood up for myself, they kicked me out.

I felt so shitty that day. I was so mad at myself that I ruined my only chance of being popular.

Thinking back that was so pathetic of me. I matter to myself more than anybody else. Now thinking back, I did the right thing standing for myself.

But to this day I still can't help and point out my flaws and compare myself to other girls.

My train of thoughts broke when my phone started ringing.

It was Elle.

"Heyy good morning I Elle!" I said.

"Morning nadine! Don't forget you need to be at the studio by eleven!! See you!" She said and hung up.

"Ya see you." I muttered under my breath.

As it was November, it started to get really cold here in New York so I decide to wear some boyfriend jeans with a white button up shirts and over that I wore a big baby blue sweater and paired the outfit with some sneakers.

Since my hair come down to my shoulders I just left them naturally and did very naturally makeup which consisted of mascara, blush and some lipgloss.

Vivvy didn't couldn't accompany me since she went to college here and had her first lecture at ten.

Before leaving I said my goodbyes to her and left.

As I checked my phone, it was ten forty five.

"Shit I'm running late." I said to myself running to my car.

I drove as fast as I could and reached the studio ten minutes late.

I was a mess when I reached there.

"Hi I'm so sorry there was traffics and i also stopped for some coffee and didn't realise the time!" I said entering the studio, breathless since I basically ran up the stairs.

"Oh it's fine we were just talking about the deal we discussed the other day." Elle said.

When I finally looked up, I finally saw him. And I couldn't help but notice his eyes. They were bright green, and somehow they were so hypnotising I couldn't look away.

The pictures really didn't do him justice. Up close in real life he-he was gorgeous.

'Do bad he was a dumbass' my subconscious said.

"Uh hi my name is Nadine Grace it's nice to meet you!" I said shaking hands with his manger.

I honestly didn't even feel like greeting him but I still shook my hands with him briefly just out of politeness.

"So we all know about the tweet war which you guys had and you know that it can be very bad for BOTH of your guys' careers so, I was thinking how about you both collab with each other. Not only will it be good for your careers but also to divert their attention from the tweets to your song." Elle said telling him the same thing she told me.