N: where's Jaden? I wanna talk to him
P: in his room
N: thanks
I ran up to his room
N: hey J
J: h-hey what's wrong?
N: dont worry about it
I went to his computer and put his new song pray on his speakers with my headphone also blasting it while i sat down on the floor against the wall
I whispered
N: i pray to God let me die in my sleep
Jaden stopped the music but i was still blasting it on my headphones
I closed my eyes while watching the video and tears fell down my face
Jaden took my airpods off
N: what the hell?!
J: Nicky what's going on?
I snatched my airpod back
N: nothing
Sab: dont do it
I opened the door and saw Sabrina crying
I started to feel guilty
P: Nicole are you ok?
N: yeah ofc
I put a smile on
A: see! I told you fake tears, she just wants attention
N: yup you guessed it, i'm gonna go for a walk
I smiled and left, my smiled disappeared, i put a hoodie on and put the hood on
?: what's a pretty gurl like you doing out here alone
N: none of your business
I walked to a Starbucks
N: hi can i get a
?: she'll get a pink drink
N: i'll have a black coffee please
I turned around and slapped the guy
N: don't follow me got it
Worker: here you go ma'am
N: thank you, have a good day
I smiled and left
N: can you stop following me
Then i saw Sabrina looking around
N; fuck!
I knew she hated PDA in thr streets so i covered my face with my hair and pinned the guy to the wall
?: hello yhere
N: Quinton?
Q: you would've just cheated?
N: no! You don't get it novody does ok
S: i do and you know i do
N: so? I don't need you i don't need anybody
S: you don't mean that
N: yeah i do i hate all of you
Sabrina knew I didn't mean it but Quinton didn't
S: Nicky calm down
N: right ofc, Sabrina my parents bate me ok?! They fucking hate me, life couldn't get any worse
I pushed past her and went to the beach
I felt Quinton's presence
N: what?
Q: why don't you just talk about it?
N: it's not that fucking easy
He nodded and left, i couldnt take it so i did the thing I regretted most i went a cliff
N: see you soon bubba
My twin died when i was 12 it hit me really hard
I was about to fall when i felt hands wrap around my waist
?: what are you doing?!
N: nothing! Leave me alone!
That voice sounded familiar
Q: who tf is he?!
N: idk
Q: right, ofc you will never change
He left and i just froze, i got off the guys grip
Quinton Griggs~
I heard the random guy yell no so I turned around and she wasn't in his arms
The guy found a way down and i looked over the cliff and saw him trying to get her body out of the water
My heart broke, i did that, i was the only thing keeping her and i mean that guy
I felt dizzy and like I couldn't breath
?: im Chris, you know her?
I couldn't say anything i just got pale
Chris: im assuming you're her bf, im really sorry i really did try, do you want me to call people
I was still pale as hell staring at her body as he took her phone and put her thumbprint, he started calling people that he thought were close
After a couple minutes 2 cars came in
S: NO!
She started sobbing and trying to reach Nicky but Kio held her back with tears in his eyes
Kio: babe it's ok, we'll get her to the hispital and get blood doners
S: NICKY!
J: Quinton! Hello?!
He waved his hand over my face and i came back to reality
I saw her again and felt like I couldn't breath again, i backed away
Q: why am i so stupid!
Jack: dont be so hard on yourself
Everyone who talked their voice broke and sounded dead
Q: it's all my fucking fault!
I got in my car and played some music to calm down and saw that the guy moved to take the body to Sabrina
Without thinking...
Sabrina Quesada
I looked over and saw Quinton driving
S: NO!
He drove over the cliff, luckily there was no explosion
Me and Kio ran down and checked, they both had no pulse i wanted to die
Kio: babe we'll get them to the hospital they'll try
Some ambulances came and took them while Kio comforted me
If you're going though things likr this please talk to someone you trust with your life, these things aren't easy to talk about and it hurts to think about, I've been through suicidal thought i never did it because i was young but things have gotten better, i did talk a little bit about it but not much and it made me relax a lot
