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I dropped off issa and Larry and I picked up the kids and we were on our way home
I put the kids to bed and Alicia was asleep the boys weren't back yet
So it was jus me by myself
I decided I'm not going into work tomorrow so I called my boss and told him he said it was fine I jus had to do overtime Wednesday......
I need to shower........
I was in the shower and I let the water run down my body as I jus thought random thoughts.......
I was brushing my teeth and I couldn't even look at myself in the mirror.....
Like how could I let him do that
I'm such a hoe
I'm not even pretty
Ale deserves better then....this
I started to cry
Katie was right then and now
I'm not pretty or anyone special
What dose ale even like about me
I probably deserved what Mar did to me
No I did deserve it
These thought only made me cry harder but I needed to take my pills
So i opened the cabinet and saw my old blade that I used to use
You can kinda still see the cuts on my thighs
It won't hurt to cut a little
Matter a fact it will make you feel better Y/n
Pick it up
Now!
So i picked it up

❗TRIGGER WARNING❗

I picked it up and instead of my thigh I brang the blade up to my wrists and slowly drug it across my wrist and at first I winched in pain but soon pain became pleasure ever cut made me feel a little better
I had 3 cuts on my left wrist

Y/n: ok that's enough

I said thinking out loud
No! 3 is a odd number you should do 3 on the other hand jus to make it even

Y/n: uh ok

Then I put the blade in my left hand and slowly drug it across my right wrist 3 times

❗END OF TRIGGER PART❗

Ale: Y/n! Where are you!

Y/n: shit shit shit

I whispered to myself while cleaning up the counter and my wrist and popping my 2 pills in my mouth and putting the blade back in the cabinet and pulled my hoodie sleeves down to make sure he didn't see but I couldn't do anything about my red puffy face
I walked out to see ale with snacks, candy, and a big teddy bear
When he saw me he had a big smile then he analyzed my face and his smile turned into a sympathy look

Ale: baby are you ok

Y/n: I'm fine

I say forcing a smile

Ale: ok I guess

Then he walked up to me and hugged me
It took everything in me not to cry and break down
I was thirsty so I let go of the hug and started to walk away but ale grabbed my wrist
Not even hard but my cut are so new that they hurt
So I let out a grunt in pain

Ale: oh shit I'm sorry

He said immediately letting go
Then he had a confused look on his face