Is You [YinWar]

Chapter 3

******* YIN'S POV *******

I woke up still being cuddled by P'War and I must admit that I unexpectedly felt so happy. This was actually the first time that I was the one being held in a warm embrace as we sleep because I was always the one doing it to him.


I wish I should have known earlier how good this feels so I should have been able asked P'War to do this to me often in the past but it is too late now. I won't be able to ask him anymore and besides I should already stop being clingy and touchy to him unless related for work purposes only.


I leaned my head closer to his chest some more and I can clearly hear his calm heartbeat. He smells so nice like always. He makes me feel warm. Oh God, how I really wish we can stay like this forever.


Come to think of it, I should actually be thankful that Prom doesn't hate me for doing things a "friend only" or most likely a "close nong only" should not do to someone's lover --- his lover. What should I do if he suddenly gets possessive over P'War??? What should I do if he will suddenly want us to clearly draw a line between us?! I don't want to take the risk cause I know I will be the one who will get hurt more. I don't even think I can take it if at the end, I'd have to lose them both.


Fuck!! I felt a sudden pain in my chest. I felt like crying again but I had to stop myself.


I swear, I won't cry anymore.


I have to stop feeling broken already.


I have to accept the truth that P'War already belongs to someone else.


This will be the last time that I will let us have physical contact more than normal friends should do.

I promise I will try my best to be back to my normal self soon before anyone else notice what happened to me.


I swear I will now start to move on.


I swear I will give way for the happiness of the two person dear to me.


I know the process will never be easy but I will bear it all as long as they are both happy.


I moved away a little from his chest and looked up to directly stare at his peaceful sleeping face. I gently caressed his face and move away some hair strands blocking his face. He is still in deep sleep.



"I may not be able to confess this to you but this will be the last time that I will say it again... I love you so much, P'War. I really really do. I hope Prom will shower you all the love and happiness you deserve." I whispered as soft as I can before I leaned in to gently place a kiss on his cheek.


I loosen his hug and replaced my body with a pillow for him not to notice my absence. I suddenly remember, P'War used to not really like cuddling as he easily feel hot in his sleep but he soon learned to accept my antics cause I never listened to his complaints. We usually end up cuddling each other especially if it was just the two of us occupying the room cause I really love hugging him.


"I will miss you, P'War. I will surely miss our moments like this." I whispered again before I left him in the room.


I went to the kitchen to cook porridge because for sure he will have a massive hangover once he woke up. He is not really a heavy drinker so I actually wondered what made him drink that much.


I also decided to prepare chicken sandwich cause I don't feel like eating the porridge. I already don't feel like eating at all at my current state and I think I will lose my appetite more eating such plain food that's why I decided to prepare something else for myself.

******* THIRD PERSON'S POV *******

"Hmmmm..." War woke up feeling unusually cold.


He gently patted the person he was hugging and he was slightly disappointed that it felt too soft to be a person.


He struggled to open his eyes to check it right away and he only found a pillow beside him. He also checked his other side and found pillows again. War felt sad and frighten at the same time. He was expecting to wake up being cuddled by Yin again because he was sure that he slept beside him last night.



"Was it just a dream?!?" War asked himself.


He rubbed his eyes a little for him to be able to see his surroundings clearly while still laying on the bed and only then he realized that he was not in his room. He looked around again until he finally recognized that he is in Yin's place.


"It wasn't a dream after all!" he exclaimed as he hurriedly rise up from his laying position.


"Awwww.... Fuck!!! My head hurts!!!" he almost screamed as he felt pain on his head due to hangover. He suddenly remembered that he drank too much last night.


He got off the bed and tried to walk to look for Yin but it seems like he was struggling too much to move around because of his severe headache.


"Yin?" he decided to just called out the name of the person he was looking for but no one answered.


"Yin?!?" He tried again a little more louder but still no one responded.


War panicked and his heart clenched a little.


He was so scared to know that Yin left him alone in his place.


He can tell that Yin have been avoiding him the past days for some reason he still haven't figured out yet.


He again tried to call out his name as he struggled to walk out of the room holding on to some random things that he can hold on just to keep him from standing.



War was literally terrified imagining that Yin must have been more mad at him cause he crashed in his place without warning last night.


He doesn't want to lose his favorite nong.
  
  
He can't afford to lose him.