;𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐠𝐨𝐭 𝐦𝐲 𝐛𝐨𝐨𝐭𝐬

'chapter 1'

.3 months before.

i sat at my computer bored, i didn't have to work today. i scrolled through twitter seeing carson reply to his friends and making jokes. i wish i could get myself more into his friend group. i believe hes busy today filming. one thing i hate about carson is that he sets up days to film allll day and he basically stresses himself out.

   still completely bored out of my mind i decide to take a shower. it was only like 11 am. i went to the bathroom and looked at myself in the mirror. i've always hated how i looked but doesn't everyone? i took off my clothes and turned on the shower to just about boiling. just how i like it.

   once i got out i brushed through my hair and changed. i'm thinking about streaming so might as well blow dry it. i havent streamed in a bit i probably should before all of my fans inevitably say fuck it she's not ever gonna stream.

   i hopped in my chair and rolled to my gamer zone. i put on my headphones and booted obs up. this is the hardest part actually clicking the button, i always freak myself out thinking no one will join or that i'll be too boring. well here goes nothing, i finally clicked it oh my god yes. 1,000 people immediately joined which shocked me.

   i greeted my chat "hey guys how's your day been so far!" i saw a bunch of goods going along in the chat. "so what type of stream do you guys want a more chilled back maybe play some piano maybe sing type stuff or like gaming??" my mods instantly put up the poll, i'm so glad that they are there. the chilled back version got a ton more votes as people started coming in more.

  "well guys how about we set it up to where a dollar or so is a song recommendation, huh?" i saw a bunch of pogs. i zoomed my camera a bit got out of my chair and moved it along and sat at my piano. so i began to sing random shit from fireflies to make you mine.

*time skip to after stream ended*

  i scrolled through twitter again. i hate admitting how much time i spend on twitter but it's just a reality i have to face. i saw a bunch of clips of me singing and edits made from the stream. it really boosts my confidence, i decided to retweet a couple.

   a couple of carson's friends like them, not any familiar names though. maybe they do like me??

  carson should be done streaming and recording by now it's like 6. i got up locked my door and knocked on his.

  "COMINGG" i heard the dumbass scream to me, how he knows it's me, no idea. but he does. before he even opens his door he says "hey y/n" i could see his eyes light up when he opened the door with, bread falling out of his mouth?? he covered his mouth and moved out of the way for me to come in.

  "hey car" it was a weird nickname but he calls me legs, so what's another transportation method? car. and it's in his name so it worked. i flopped on his bed. we both only lived in like studio apartments so they weren't too big.

   he sat back down in his chair and rolled towards me "i saw a bit of your stream, i raided it but i dont think you noticed." my eyes widened, carson gets many more viewers than i do so that kinda scared me.

   "oh my, thank you, bit of a weird first impression just me singing random meme songs." he shook his head.

   "no no it's all good they seemed like they loved it, plus a couple of my friends saw too!" he said scrolling on his phone.

   "oh wow really... a couple of them liked some of the edits and clips of me." maybe they were just making fun of me or something?

   "they were talking about you, i think they think you're cool." he said harshly he mumbled something else though i couldnt hear him. i should just change the topic.

   "what do you want for dinner it's getting late, do you wanna cook or go out maybe? we could bring it back." i sat up dangling my car keys.

   "definitely go out, why would you ever think i would rather put EFFORT into something?" he said while walking to the door. "last one to the car has to pay!"

   i screamed at him stumbling out his door "that's ACTUALLY NOT FAIR MORON YOU HAD A MILLION SECOND HEAD START" i finally got to the car panting.

   "sucks to suck time to pay with your twitch money." he laughed getting into the car.

  we just went to mcdonald's because it's so much easier. we got back to the complex with bags and drinks in our hands. i kicked open his door and set it on his counter.

   "we eat way too much for just two people you know that right?" i chuckled looking at the two bags of food.

   "noooo it's fine, we're growing boys." he said spreading the food out.

   i rolled my eyes and started eating the feast of grease that we just bought. carson's phone dinged and dinged and dinged.

  "oh my fucking god how important does something have to be." he reached down to get his phone on the chair beside of him. i saw him scan through the messages.

   "what isss ittttt??" i said being very nosy. like always "nunya" he replied. oh come on he can't do that to me.

  "actually it does have something to do with you, i need to start introducing you to my friends. there's something important coming up." he said in a serious tone which he barely fucking does.

  "oh well just set up something i guess." i shrugged it off and continued eating.

  "hey wanna play mario kart?" i suggested knowing he would say yes even though i kick his ass in it.

  "duh of course i do." he said walking to his tv and setting it up.

  after awhile of laughing and swearing at eachother it was getting pretty late. i could tell he was tired he probably didn't get a lot of sleep, i mean he never does.

  "i'm gonna head home okay, car?" i said getting up and gathering my things. "do you havveeee to??" he drug out the sentence trying to guilt me into staying.

  "yes i have work tomorrow and you need to get to bed." i threw him one of his blankets, actually i think i bought this for him.

   "ughhhhhhh, same time tomorrow?" he groaned, rubbing his eyes. i nodded walking out his door. we always did this id say at the least 3 times a week. i dont know what id do without him he makes my life a whole lot less lonelier.

   i went through my apartment taking off my shoes and throwing on an oversized hoodie. i set my alarms, i need like 15 to actually get up. and scrolled through my phone. once i got tired of that i just laid there. i wondered what was so important that i have to meet carson's friends, i mean i'm not opposed but why now? i need to stop over thinking this. just g o t o s l eep

  got it going to sleep. yes i am sleeping. no i'm not i'm getting back on my phone. i went down a rabbit hole on youtube and fell asleep to some weird news report.

very sorry this chapter took a bit !!! just been a bit busy let me know if you guys like it or if you'd like maybe carson's pov too if i do that i'd probably do schlatts also ?? i just didnt know with it being an x reader !! schlatt will be soon promise. wc//1342