My Life, My Thoughts

Wont Last

This won't last.. Will it?
The happiness.
The laughter.
The love that you give me.
That you have for me.
It'll just end..
You'll turn away..
For someone better..
Someone more worthy..
Someone more deserving..
I don't deserve to be happy..
And you'll realize I'm nothing special.
You'll realize that I'm nothing important..
Sooner or later you'll have to leave..
Everyone has to..
Because nobody can stay.
Because nobody can deal with me.
Because nobody can ever truly love me.
You say now that you want and will be with me the rest of your life.
But just give it a year or two and that will be enough.
You say now that I'm all you were ever looking for.
But down the road you'll find someone a thousand times better.
Someone a thousand times prettier.
Someone a thousand times smarter.
Someone a thousand times skinnier.
Someone a thousand times happier.
And someone a thousand times funnier.
No one can deal with a self loathing ball of hate like me.
No one can.
I can't even deal with myself.
I know I should enjoy it for now..
Enjoy it while it does last..
But it's hard to when I know..
Deep down..
That it really won't last.