Promises Are Promises( Justin Bieber love story)

Chapter 4

Justin's P.O.V

"Justin?" Sarah ask in between breaths.

"What r u doing on my porch crying ur heart out?" I asked. She was about to answer when she started to bawl her eyes out again not being able to answer me. I could tell she was hurt. I am an expert of telling when girls have broken heart coz I am the expert of breaking them but not anymore. I have put my cards to the side and changing my game. I snapped out of my thoughts when I got a shiver down my spine.

"Come on Sarah. Lets get you inside out of the cold."

She nodded slightly and got up. I wrapped my arms around her taking her inside and treasuring that moment because it is most likely not going to happen again. I took her I side and sat her down on the couch.

"R u ok? Tell me what happened." I asked sitting next to her. I wrapped a blanket around her as it had rained and she was wet. She took a second to reply as she was thinking of what to say.

" my sister died. She died today." She struggled to get out.

"It's ok. She is happy now in heaven watching over u." I said trying to cheer her up.

"I guess so. " she said still trying to search her brain.

"I remember when I came and saw her..."

When I said that her expressions changed dramatically.

"U promised! Why didn't u keep ur promise. I didn't want her to die. Then she was happy when u came and said u would be back. U never came. How could u. Why?!!!!!!" She shouted/ cried. She got up and ran out if the house.

"Sarah, wait!" I shouters after her.

Sarah's P.O.V

"Sarah, wait!" Justin yelled while I was running away. I ran out side and down the street to the city. I caught the cab back to the hospital. I was sulking all the way to the hospital. I got there and paid the taxi driver then ran into the hospital. I ran to my sisters room where I saw my mum sitting next to my sisters bed asleep. She had been crying. I went to the other side and held onto my sisters cold and lifeless hand.

"Why sis. Why?!" I cried.

"Why wasn't I here to say my last goodbyes. Why did I run away and have my mum text me and say u died. Why?" I broke down at this point and couldn't control myself. I squeezed her hand. It was pale and really cold.

" ur only four. How could u leave me. I love u. I want u to come back. Please. Come back to me!" At this moment I couldn't breath. I cried for a while when a nurse came in and covered her face with the blanket. I couldn't take this. Anna was a big part of my life. I can't do this anymore. I can't. I fell asleep after awhile then awoke again next to Anna and my mum. I instantly fell to the floor drowning in my own tears. I found something sharp on the floor. It looked like glass. I wasn't sure. I picked it up and did what I had to do. I cut my wrist. I know it wasn't right. But I could not control myself. I cut my wrist and it really hurt I yelped and screamed. I made another cut. This time I screamed really loud and my mum woke up and the nurses came in. I kept doing it, crying as I made the cuts that would leave scars forever. For everyone to c. I was pined to the floor. Yelled at and tookin care of my the nurses. The bandaged the wounds up and told my mother I was not safe at the hospital. What happened if I killed myself or something so mum took me home. They had to practically drag me out of the hospital. Everyone was staring but I didn't care. Not one bit. Mum took me home and escorted me to my room. I fell on my bed and cried my heart out. I can't believe all this was happening.

1 week later*

I havnt left my room yet. Only to go to the toilet but nothing else. I haven't eatin in a week and I was starving. I just couldn't get up to eat so I just stayed there. I was lying in my bed playing subway surfers on my phone when I got a text.

"Hey. R u ok?" It was from Justin. I didn't text back coz I knew I wasn't ok. It has been a hard 2 weeks. I am still crying everyday till the point I cry my self to sleep. The funeral was tomorrow and I needed to get up and do something because I haven't been out of my bed in ages so I got up and had a shower. I got dressed and went downstairs to c my mum.

"Hey Sweety!"

"Hey mum. Just gonna go down to the shops and get some ice cream. We have none." I said.

"Wait a minute. U r out of ur cave? What?!" She said confused.

"Mum the funeral is tomorrow. I need to get up. Be back soon." I got the keys and went out to the driveway. The light was burning my eyes even with glasses on. I drove down to the nearest supermarket and brought a tub of chocolate chip ice-cream. It was my favorite. I went to pay for it when at the counter there was a sign that said 'raise money to help prevent cancer'. God I wish I had money to raise for them sick little kids. It's not fair for them to go through the stuff that Anna did. I drove back home and went straight to the t.v and ate the ice cream while watching titanic. I love that movie. I don't know why everyone cries in it. I only cried the first time. Now, I don't cry. I'm just like to everyone else "babies!"

I was watching the last part when Rose through the heart of the ocean into the sea at the end. I had finished my tub of ice cream and was now just putting my finger in and licking it. The movie ended and it was late because I watched it two times in a row coz I loved it that much, and it goes for three hours so no on was up. I got up and put my stuff n the sink then went to go watch another movie. I wasn't tired but I had to get my sleep so I decided to watch one episode of the Vampire Dairies. I watched it the turned the tv off and went to the kitchen to get a drunk. It was really dark coz there was no lights on. I managed to trip over three things on the way. I got a drunk then heard something. I was dead still breathing really heavily. See, when I watch that movie at night time. I get scared. I think that Damon Salvatore is going to jump out and kill me or something. I slowly started walking when I heard footsteps and they weren't mine. At this point I was so still, like a statue. I didn't want to move. I was scared as hell. I was about to walk again when the light turned on. I screamed and jumped. It turned out to be my mum. 'Curse u!!!'

"Mum!" I screamed. "Don't scare me like that!" I yelled.

"Sorry darling. Just getting a drink. U should go to sleep. Big day tomorrow." She said.

"Ok. Goodnight mum!" And with that I took off upstairs. I flopped on my bed and cuddled up into the blankets and fell asleep.

Justin's P.O.V

I was watching tv when mum came in and stood right in front of the tv blocking my way.

"Mum move!" I asked, more like told her.

"Get in ur room and go to bed. U have a big day tomorrow!" She commanded.

Mum was right. I did have a big day. I was planing on going to Anna's funeral. I talked to her mum and she said that it would be fine and I was going to sing a song to make up to Sarah. I know she probably won't forgive me but its worth a try. I got up and turned the tv off and went to my room. I shut the door and laid in my bed staring at the ceiling. I couldn't go to sleep. Not now. J wasn't tired so I waited till I heard the lights go out and mum shut her door. I got out of bed and turned my light on. I got out my song book and started to write some ideas. This is what I do at night. I wrote for a while when I fell asleep. I was army desk when I heard mum come in and turned the light off. I was half asleep and half awake, but after a minute or two I was out like a light.