NIRVANA | RENMIN

outro: dream

OUTRO: DREAM

"hey, chenle."

"hi hyung! did you like the dumplings?"

"yes, they were... really good."

jaemin smiled sadly as he handed the empty box back to chenle. the younger noticed the blank look in jaemin's eyes.

"hey, hyung, are you okay-?"

jaemin widened his eyes and stumbled back.

"o-oh, i'm fine, chenle."

the boy hummed and shifted around in his seat. "wait for me, will you? i have five minutes left."

jaemin sat down in approval and drummed his fingers on the counter.

"chenle."

"hyung?"

"do you miss renjun?"

the question in itself hit chenle like a truck. he bit his lip.

"of course i do..." chenle's voice trembled a little.

"he says sorry." jaemin mumbled. " he also says he loves you."

"what?" chenle frowned. "he's dead."

"ah... no." jaemin leaned back and his voice hitched. "i-it was just a dream."

chenle spun the chopsticks around in his hands, twirling it around and around. it reminded jaemin of renjun, when he would spin and spin to show jaemin his ballet.

"did you love him, hyung?"

jaemin raised his brows at the sudden question.

"he loved you so much, you know, hyung." chenle smiled. "he wrote you letters everyday."

jaemin felt a pang in his chest. the letters.

he had three hundred and fourty four replies, half of them shredded, in his suitcase.

his mother had threatened him. go to the usa, get away from that boy. if i find you sending letters again, you know what'll happen.

jaemin invited renjun to the park to read the letters with him.

he remembered what renjun had told him just an hour ago.

"i just wanted to see you again, that's all."

jaemin smiled and looked at chenle.

"i loved him too, lele."

END.