Mom....... What is wrong with you? How can you think that she will be perfect for me? Listen I just came here because you insisted me no not insisted me but blackmailed me to come here or else visiting India so soon was no where in my plans. Mom ple...
The best and most beautiful things in this world cannot be seen or even heard, but must be felt with the heart.
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---------------------------------------------------------- Advait's pov: (2 years back till present)
It's been two years since my last visit to India and was a dreadful experience for me. The guilt of hurting siya is still hovering me and is making me feel like a criminal.
I wasn't able to meet her after that incident and that was the last time I talked to my parents, after that they never contacted me. I tried talking to them but nothing helped much to restore back the rift that I created between us.
Not like they never received my calls, they did but just hmmmed at my questions or talks. What makes me more restless is siya I don't know why I am not able to forget her? Why she is bothering me Soo much? It's been 2 years but still I am not able to get over her. May be because she was the only one who was able to enter my heart and create some unknown feelings in it.(chuckling) how can I fall in love? That is all bullshit. I can never love anyone yes I can never!!! I said to myself banging my hand on the wall.
I tried hard to convince myself to not fall in love with her but there was something in her which always attracted me I was no longer that same cold hearted advait I had some unknown feelings in me which I definitely knew is love but was not ready to accept it. All these two years I tried hard to keep her thoughts away from me but the more I tried the more I started thinking of her, infact I started hallucinating her everywhere around me advising me, shouting at me and what not. But am I really worth it? I questioned myself I could have got all the happiness in my life if I would have that courage to move on with my past I would have been happily married to Siya by now.( I chuckled at my own imagination which seemed more of a fantasy) realising it is never gonna come true I slept thinking atleast I can meet her in my dreams.
"No....No Bhai" I jerked opened my eyes with tears continuously flowing...and totally drenched in sweat. After sometime I relaxed and gulped down the whole bottle of water to calm myself and to register everything that happened a few minutes ago. I rested my head on the headboard of my bed and I don't know when I dozed off in that position and that was the night everything changed in my life I woke up in the morning with some new found feelings and determination. I went towards the window to look at the rising sun and slowly a smile crept on my lips as I started comparing Siya's face with the sun how her face had the same glow as the morning sun has, she used to spread happiness and love everywhere she used to go with her chirpy nature similar to the sun as it spreads light everywhere engulfing the scary darkness of night.. and now I can proudly say I am in love with siya and will do anything to get her back in my life, but before that I have to clear the mess I have created.
I immediately pulled out my phone booked the next possible flight I could for india after booking my tickets soon after, I started working on my pending work and started giving instructions to sawan (he is advait's PA and only person he trusts the most after his best friend arjun) of the upcoming projects and how to handle them as I will take time for me to return back from India and hopefully with siya this time. I quickly packed my stuff and left for the airport.
After few hours:
Haridwar present: I finally landed after a hectic journey, Coming to this place again after two years is really a bliss. I started relaxing myself and was waiting for my cab to come since I wanted to surprise mom and dad I came here without informing them, I really want to makeup with them for all the time they have missed being with me. I can't even imagine the pain they might have gone through all these years. When I look back I really feel that I was a real jerk as which son behaves with their parents the way I did. I was ashamed of myself being called as their son as I never tried to understand them, their worrier their pain. I felt miserable of myself and guilty for behaving rude with them all these years. If not that last night's dream I would have never realised my mistake and would have continued behaving the way I used to.
After few minutes I reached my home and impatiently started ringing the door bell excited to see the expression of my parents. After few minutes Maa opened the door suprise, joy, happiness, excitement, love was all evident in her eyes and somehow I felt happy to find the same love and excitement which I was missing since years but soon those all feelings were masked by a blank look and she just left her way to let me enter. That was the least I wanted to see, I always wanted them to be proud of me but now I can only see disgust in their eyes and somehow I deserve it.
After freshing up and setting my things in my room I finally decided to talk to Maa before confronting siya and clarifying about our feelings I know I am being selfish but I can't loose her now and want to confess rather than regretting later. I don't even know whether she loves me or not and I can't even expect her to love after what I did to her( chuckling bitterly) or whether she is married I dont know anything but still I feel like to confess as she deserves to know about my feelings towards her but I am just praying that she should not be married after what I did I don't deserve anything but I still hope for a chance a last chance to give her all the love and respect she deserves with determination I went to look for Maa
"Maa....... " I said with chocked voice and tears threatening to spill out any moment. She turned towards me but kept an emotionless face and after a pause she finally said," yes". Thought the answer was short it was enough for me to breakdown and I just engulfed her in a bone crushing hug and poured out all my emotions that I had locked in my heart for years and started crying like a kid. Only a mother can bring out the hidden child within us and it is true you find your solace in her embrace. I cried keeping my head on her lap, I don't know for how much time until I found her caressing my hair. I tilted my head to have a view a her face and I could see the long lost love, pain in her eyes as tears made their way from her eyes and finally breaking her walls.
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