A Mistake

Chapter 15

Megan Pov Harlem,NY

"Stop it that hitting shit Giovanni, it's unnecessary now apologize to your sister" I said separating the two of them from each other.

"Nah he meant that shit and I could card less about his opinion. Matter of a fact y'all leaving in like two days so I think I should say my goodbyes now" Sanai said right before leaving our presences.

"See this that shit I be talking about. Y'all better stop treating that girl like she been around you guys for years. And start treating her as the person she is. We have to understand that girl have issues and is used to dealing with the shit she usually do". I said to all of them before taking a sip of my wine. Yes I'm disappointed about the life choices Sanai had made but I have to accept the fact that I caused that to happen.

"Nah Momma she acting like a hoe. Ion like that shit. What she need to understand is I'm her older sister I don't want to hear her doing that or think about that. She have older siblings that wanna see the best in her not the worst in her. So that little ass slap Giovanni gave her was a warning" Ella said making everyone agree.

I just think we all have to accept Sanai for who she is and try to get used to it for a while. We can't change no one or tried to make them perfect that's only going to caused her to be distanced towards us. I want her to understand where we're coming from, yeah we wasn't in her life but we care for her and not leaving her ever again especially me. I made  A MISTAKE giving her away and that's something I have to deal with for the rest of my life but now I'm trying to owned up to it by showing Sanai that I'm here for her.

"Okay your right but give her some space for now. I don't have time for her to be arguing with all her siblings now." I said so nonchalant because really I blame myself for the whole situation.

            SANAI POV HARLEM,NY
Yeah I'm ready for them to go back to California not that it was cool meeting my birth family and shit but they have to understand that I don't completely know them. They're 100 percent strangers to me. Yes I read about them on blogs and magazines but I don't know. I wished that they can understand that.

"Damm my fucking right cheeks hurts like a mother fucker" I said out loud while laying a ice pack on it softly.

"That's what your ass get. Your lucky it wasn't me" my dad said walking towards me.

He took the ice pack off my face to examined my cheeks, then place in my hand for me to put it back on my face.

"Welp you guys are leaving soon, so that mean everything can go back to normal for me. I'll still be here working and doing me, while you guys live y'all lavish life worried free". I said without emotions before hopping onto the counter to sit on. I really wanted to have a conversation with Dave so he can understand that I don't want him to adopt me without fully understanding me yet.

"See that's the thing Sanai I'm not leaving you here I just can't. It wouldn't sit right with me leaving behind my daughter in another state where she have to struggle.  when I'm here on the earth and could help her with anything she needs. You have to understand sweetheart I love you from the bottom of my heart so does your mother and siblings. We want to see the best in you before anything" Dave said staring at me.

" I hear you dave for real" I said giving a look before staring at the floor.

"Actually I lied I don't hear you. I want y'all to understand that I don't know y'all from a can of paint.  I don't know how to fit in into you guys world or lifestyle. I don't have shit compared to y'all. I literally live paycheck to paycheck the clothes I got is either stolen from stores, hammy down clothes from thrift shops or friends who felt bad for me" I semi yelled before lowering my tone because I didn't want to slapped again for being disrespectful.

"I know Sanai and I'm trying to fix that seriously i want to get to know you. I want to understand you. I want you to know that I'm here for you and never leaving your side. It hurts me to know only 30 percent of the shit you went through. But I promised you this, as long as I have breathe on this earth I'm never letting a soul hurt you even me. I love you child" he said coming near me and wiping my watery eyes that look like I was about to bust into tears.

" I hear you and I acknowledged your promise but please don't break it. I'm really trying to believe every word Dave" shortly after I said that I just walked up to my room to take a shower.