Singularity: Maimed My Pure

Chapter 1

“Gan’to ba talaga ‘yong feeling ng katatapos lang magpa-rhinoplasty? I feel like my nose has become bigger than usual. Maling shape yata ‘yong nahulma, April,” pagdaing ko sa pakiramdam ko ay nanlalaki ko nang ilong.

“Tiyaka ka na magreklamo ‘pag natanggal na ‘yong balot d’yan sa ilong mo tapos hindi nakuha ‘yong gusto mong shape. Ang sabi sa akin ay six weeks ang hihintayin mo para umayos na ‘yang ilong mo at mawala ‘yong pamamaga.”

“And I assumed you canceled all my appointments within those six weeks that will be covered for my recovery, haven’t you?”

“Yup… aside from one.” Mula sa masarap kong pagkakasandal sa upuan ng kotse ay dumako kay April ang mga mata ko. “Kung hindi ka raw sisipot sa appointment mo with Direk Weng on the third week of this month, baka raw ibigay na lang niya ‘yong role mo sana sa isang series—either kay Monique Chavez or kay Krista.”

That news blew my mind. Malinaw naman kasi ang pakiusap ko kay Direk Weng noon na kahit next month na kami mag-meet tungkol doon sa project dahil na rin may balak akong magpa-surgery ngayon.

And why did this news suddenly come up? Kung hindi ako sisipot na tagpuin siya sa appointment namin ay ibibigay niya sa iba ‘yong role—’yong leading role na iniaalok niya sa akin?

Of all people, why did Krista belong to his options?!

“Set the meeting then,” I pronounced with assurance sa kabila ng pananakit ng ilong ko kasi ang daldal ko na naman.

Kabilin-bilinan pa naman sa akin ng doktor na ‘wag daw muna ako dumaldal. Well, if it’s part of your nature to just be talkative for the rest of your life, it’s very hard.

“It’s not important kung humarap man ako sa kanya na may benda ang ilong ko. I just can’t let this slide—giving the opportunity for Krista to have the leading role. Neknek niya.”

As if I was joking, humalakhak si April habang nagmamaneho. “Do you hate her that much? Since when? Hindi pa ba buwag ang 8inity, may grudge ka na sa kanya?”

“It started when the group was disbanded.”

“And then?”

Sa sobrang irita ko kay April, nahampas ko nang malakas ang braso. “Ikaw, akala mo hindi kita kasama no’ng sinabi ng doktor na ‘wag nga raw akong dumaldal. Palit kaya tayo ng sitwasyon? Kung alam mo lang… malapit na ako maging ngongo dahil kada bigkas ko ng salita, doble ‘yong kirot na kapalit. The fvck.”

“E, ikaw naman kasi ‘tong parang taeng-tae na magkwento-”

“Just drive me home.”

With my body totally exhausted with that short conversation, bigla akong nanlambot at inantok.

Nakakapanghina pala talaga ang gan’tong surgery—although marami na rin naman akong pinagdaanang surgery just to achieve my dream perfect body and face. I have enhanced my breast and butt. I also finished undergoing a rhytidectomy, in which my face was lifted and repositioned. And also chin surgery. Pina-correct ko ‘yong hugis ng chin ko. Syempre para ma-achieve ko ‘yong ‘hugis-bigas’.

Hindi naman dahil hindi ako kuntento sa katawan at itsura ko kaya ako nagpapa-surgery. I have my reasons why I wanted to make my body, from head to toe, look flawless and attractive to others.

Una sa lahat, ayoko naman kasing magmukhang dugyot ‘pag inihihilera ako sa on-screen partner ko, si Loki. He’s a fine man, gorgeous, and has masculine body. He’s so perfect.

To have our chemistry balanced, I should be a perfect woman too.

And of course… It’s my own money which I’m spending for my own needs. These are the juices of my hard work and I have my freedom to spend it with things I’m much and would like to spend it with.