Forever and always ~ nash grier

Bad things part 2

I looked over to cams lifeless looking body just laying there
Cam. Dead.body.gone.nash.me.
*beep , beep* cams heart rate went really fast and then slowly fell down *beeeeep* nurses and doctors came rushing in and out grabbing cams body and rushing him out of there .
Cams dead ................................
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Nooo!
" babe wake up, babe,alyssa !"
"Wait what...."
I slowly opened my eyes to see nash looking down at me with tired bags under his eyes and looking woried
"Alyssa you've been tossing and turning and you suddenly burst out into tears and yelled 'no' are you okay?" Nashs expression fell low and I didn't know what to say " nash I -im sorry I had a nightmare that c-cam d-d-d-I-" nash pulled me in for a tight hug " alyssa me and you both know cams too strong to ever just go like that. He is the kind of person who fights and fights till he lost the battle which he never does . He'll wake up alyssa I can promise you that.

Promise ." I just nodded not knowing what to say . I was fully awake now I checked my iPhone ( 5s silver)

3:47 am

Ugh . Really?
Knowing that I couldn't go back to sleep for sometime now I unlocked my phone and went on Twitter

Alyssa Johnson :
Things happen for a reason
Good
Or
Bad
3:48 am

I scrolled through Twitter and saw many other friends tweet things just alike

Mahogany lox :
Sometimes you just want to go back
1:15 am

Aaron carpenter:
All we can do is hope and pray .
2:58 am

Taylor caniff:
Sometimes Only the bad memories stay Forever
1:45 am

Jack gilinsky :
I wish you were here again
1:50 am

Jack Johnson :
Does is ever seem so possibly hard to hold in feelings?
2:00 am

Jacob whitesides:
The shortest length of time is the most memorable when the ones you care about get hurt
3:15 am

Carter Reynolds :
Does is ever seem like only bad things happen to the people you know?
3:45 am

HAYES grier :
Sometimes all you want to do is cry , sometimes that's all you can do
3:35 am

Sammy wilkinson:
Emotions; a feeling that demand to be felt
2:17 am

Matthew Espinosa :
The littlest things effect us the Most
3:49 am

That last tweet ( matts ) was the that one hit me , the littlest thing as a drunk driver effected us and everyone else's life the most . I retweet matts tweet and lay my head on Nashs shoulder just thinking. How could such a person do this to cam ? Cameron was one of the only people that kept me going through tough times . He called me his little sister and I called him my big brother DALLAS . Cameron was someone special and I can't help but think it was partly my and Nashs fault he's in a coma and that he's like this .
Why does life have to be so difficult?

My phone lit up moments later
Incoming text
Nash ❤️😘💘: just come sit with me

I looked over at him not knowing he was still awake . I smiled and sat down with him . I finally broke the silence
" Nash? Why did that person have to do This to cam??" Nash sighed and a tesr came down my face
" Alyssa to be honest, I really have no Idea and all I can do is hope right now that cam is going to wake up "
I knew what nash said was true but I just kept thinking what a life without cam would be like
" Nash , a life without cam would be so ..... Unbearable and Different . I thought of him as my big brother ." I stopped mid sentence and burst out in tears " we all did alyssa don't worry"
" the house would be so dull and boring with out him nash . We was the life of the party and ewe homes everyday life ."
~ 2 days later~
I've been slightly better each day and I've been crying less and less but I still wake up to bad dreams ever night or so . Nash always takes me in his arms and I cuddle with him and I feel like all my bad dreams slowly wash away.
Everyday I wake up and check on cam , make sure he still looks okay and he looks fine everyday . Me and nash haven't gone home once to shower and have been getting food from the cafeteria although I usually don't want to. I eat a small breakfeast and skip lunch and have a slightly bigger dinner . Nash keeps saying it's bad im not eating but all I can think of is cam being like this , of why he had to run away or why we had to be so mean or why and why and I keep coming to the fact that it was all my fault yet nash keeps telling me it's not .

~ 3 days later ~
It's been 6 days sense cams been in a coma . All we can do is hope and I've been getting better with coping with my anxiety of him DIEING and I've been not crying as much . My nightmares of cam haven't gone away and I still cuddle into nash each night.

My phone has been blowing up with daily text from people like
• the MAGCON gang
• the o2l gang
• Lea ( carters gf)
• my other friends
I've been ignoring them All and cams,nash, the gangs, and my fans keep asking what's going on and until we know for sure if cam is gonna wake up or not we have all decided not to tell any of them for now .
I've been getting daily text from mahogany and Jack G more than anyone because of all of this . Taylor text every two days and I think it's nice and I love having friends like them . But I haven't had the courage to pick up my phone in atleast 3 days and I haven't tweeted or done any post sense that day on Twitter .

Why ? Is all I can think .
Nash was asleep and it was only 10:30 am not to late yet not early
I cried silently and then all I heard was a voice not to low, not to high, sounded like a laugh, yet being serious at the same time
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"Why are you crying little sis?"
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Sorry for a cliff hanger but I've been sick for a little while now and haven't been to thinking of updating lately. Also I'm sorry this is all in italics my wattpad was going nuts and isn't letting me change back to my normal font. Also TYSM for over 1.05k!
Goal:1.10k
Ily guys sm! Byee
Peace 💘