The Whole Damn Night Sky

"I love you for you for who you are."

Nobody stayed very long. I honestly forgot it was our anniversary. Everyone got a hotel but Bradley is at my house. We had dinner at Applebee's.
He fell asleep upstairs after dinner with everyone and I'm on the couch watching The Kardashians.
He's been up there for a while.
Bradley comes downstairs.
"I can't believe it's been six years since you became the love of my life." He whispers. He pats my thigh. I sit up and he lays down I lean against him.
"I can't believe we're still virgins." I blurt.
"Well we don't have to be." He says.
"True." I mumble. "But I don't want to have sex just because our limit is up. I think we should just let it happen." I say.
"I agree." He kisses my shoulder. I sigh, content.

BRADLEY'S POV

three hours later and we haven't moved out spot. We're content. Neither one of us is tired, but we're just resting with each other. We haven't even spoken since I told her I agreed about just letting it happen.
I've been lying to her for years and I really want to tell her but our relationship isn't very strong right now.
I need to tell her but I'm so scared.
Whatever. I need to tell her because lying to her has been making me feel stressed and terrible for years.

EMMA'S POV

"Ems." Bradley whispers against my shoulder. I jump slightly and he chuckles.
"Hmm?" I hum. He kisses my shoulder lightly.
"I've been lying to you for years." He whispers softly. I don't move, but he knows I'm listening. "Since high school when we were dating seven months."
I inhale sightly and he tenses, but I know he's nervous so I just remain calm. "About what?" I whisper.
"Remember when you asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up?"
"Mmm." I hum.
"Well I told you a cop."
"Yes." I whisper.
"I lied. I just told you a cop because I didn't want you to think I was a dumbass. I was going to tell you I lied right after that but then you said I would look hot in the outfit and..." He trails off. "I just didn't want to seem like an idiot. I've been so stressed, so damn stressed because I've been lying to you and making you think I was a cop."
She doesn't speak.
"Sweetie, I'm not a cop. I'm going to be a math teacher for Sophomores and Juniors. I know it's not exactly attractive and it's not what you wanted-"
I sit up, tears sliding down my cheeks, and turn to face him, hurt.
His eyebrows crease, panicked.
"Ems-"
"No." I shake my head. "Why the hell would you think I care?" I snarl. "I love you for you, for who you are. I don't care if your a yoga teacher. Your you, and I love you for that. I'm hurt you would think I wouldn't love you as you."
"So your not mad I'm a teacher?"
"No. I don't care. I'm not even mad, I'm just hurt that you think I don't love you for you."
"I'm sorry." He mutters.
"It's okay." I whisper.
He pulls me so I'm laying down directly on top of him. I scoot closer so my chest is directly against his, and I lift my head up and kiss him slowly.
"I love you so much." He mutters. "It hurts how much I love you. I can't think straight with how much I love you."
"I love you so much too."
"I want to marry you." He whispers.
I lift my head up to look at him. He looks completely serious. "I want to get married before you start work."
I know why. He's scared, terrified, actually, to lose me. "Marry me. Let's go to a courthouse tomorrow and get married."
I sit up slowly, straddling him. I reach over him, my right hand on his chest as I turn on the lamp next to the couch.
"Bradley." I whisper. "You don't want to marry me."
"Yes I do!" He says.
"No, your scared to lose me."
He falls silent.
"You want to marry me because your terrified I'll die."
He gulps.
"And right now your trying not to cry because your picturing your life without me."
"I'll kill myself if I have to live without you." He whispers.
"You won't." I promise.
"Can we at least get engaged?" He whispers. "I want a ring on your finger because, just like I've told you a million times, you aren't just a star to me, your the whole damn night sky."
I study him for a long time, smiling softly. "Okay." I agree slowly. "Let's get engaged."

THIS IS SO SHORT IT HURTS!
I'll update when I get a chance. I started back to school for the first time in months because of mono so bear with me.
I just want you guys to know that I'm here for all of you. If you ever need to talk or your upset and crying and you feel alone, you can message me. I'll talk to you. None of you are alone because all of you have me. :)
I love you guys!
~Samantha