A RAY OF LIFE

14.

Another week has passed, I'm left with 3 weeks down to my delivery and decision if I'll get to live or not. I wasn't prepared, I hadn't thought of anything about it. I was just indulged in my new personal love life and kept dodging the main motive I was sent on the earth for. Derek left for the office half an hour ago, I was awake since 5 am this morning but I pretended to be sleeping, something inside me was off for one thing and on for the other.
I was living a real happy life now, Angela and Lucifer came to visit me two days ago and a day before that too. I wasn't being attacked or stalked by any other new ghost but still today, my happiness just lost it. Today my escape got an end and I fell on the porch of reality. Reality of the bigger problem I had in my life, for my life.

I lazily slid  off from the duvet and came downstairs to see for breakfast. Derek was so caring and attentive for me that he was leaving food chart everyday on the fridge along with the already made food inside. Everyday he left me with no work no loads but I'm cooking dinner for him since we are living together which by taste is disaster but I know he appreciates my hard work. We order pizza afterwards.

Gobbling my cereal and fruits, I wished for Angela and Lucifer to come and stop by so that I could talk to them. I wanted to ask them to guide me about how to do what I'm supposed to do.  It was about five morsels only when they both came out of my living room, not surprising me this time.

"Hmm... someone's living Cinderella life huh" Angela said sitting in front of me and taking an apple slice from my plate.

"Yeah well...he is so much of a prince charming you know, he leaves food charts for me.....like really food charts...my mother would marry him right now" and Angela chuckled while I just nodded looking at my food.

"But the question is, will you?" Lucifer said picking the whole food plate from behind me and sat with it beside me.

"Well...I haven't....marriage....ahah( giggled nervously) isn't it too soon...I mean..."

"Oh relax Stevens, we ain't marrying you now..." He said while throwing a guava slice in my cereal. I frowned and started digging my spoon inside to pick that out while saying " I don't like guava...and marriages". I finally found that slice and picked it out of my bowl.

"But he is looking forward for it" Lucifer said so nonchalantly, I almost coughed listening to him. My eyes shot open and I looked at Lucifer while Angela sighed in once-a-swine-always-a-swine mode.

"Wha....what...do you..how do....hah...you read....read his mind...?.....oh god.." I forgot if there was any food even there. Was Derek really looking forward to marry me? I wasn't even near to relationship, I mean I was surely loving this life with him but...woah commitment freaks me out. Was he really...? Am I just....destroying him more..?

"Ya...ah yes yes.. yes I...heh I-read-his mind.." Lucifer said mimicking the panicked stammering me which fumed me even more.

"Cut it out Lucy. Honey, don't ya worry he is just fooling you around" well  I know you would call me total freak but knowing that Lucifer was kidding about Derek thinking of marrying me upset me slightly. But shooing my thoughts away I decided to ask them for why I called them here.

"Anyways, I need to ask your pieces of wisdom for how am I going to do what's required to get me and my baby alive" I said putting my bowl aside as the will of eating suddenly dried up. Now that bowl of cereal was making me nauseous.

"Well....we can't really help you with that..." Angela said looking up at me. Lucifer was roaming in the house opening drawers checking shelves, I decided to leave him be.