A RAY OF LIFE

27.

Before I could wait and see about the man laid injured right in front of me, I felt my water broke under my pants. Now was so not the good time for me to give birth and forget everything, I was going to die as per the deal I had with Lucifer and Angela.
I started panicking so much. Derek and Hike were outside helping with the man and I couldn't even call them out for help because obviously the man out there needed more attention than me.
Just when I was hoping to see somebody, I got the right people beside me.

"Angela.. my water......my water broke just now"  I said with panting voice as tears already took their place and anxiety was on it's way. Once again I was gonna loose my life and my child's. There was no way of looking it in a good way, I was just blaming myself for indulging in all other things than planning a dead man for this time, the thing I was out on earth for.

"No, you weren't put on earth to kill another man. What you did Ire....in all these weeks.....were most heroic and most selfless things you have ever done, or anyone has ever done so don't ever repent on them, it's all going to come back to you in some good way or the other." Lucifer said holding my face in between his cold palms and making me look in his eyes straightway. They soothed me this time rather scaring me like always. He was surpassing me strength and positivity which I admit I needed but what I needed the most that time....I had no idea how to get that.

"Call Derek.....before it's too late" Angela said with weird eyes and I knew what she meant. She was hinting me to say goodbye to him before it was too late. Derek was still outside calling his people and a taxi to get that man to the hospital.
I looked at her with my glassy eyes and she looked downwards. I can't even explain how butchered I felt at that moment, that was the exact moment when I was so scared of dieing. So scared about it that I was slapping myself inside for putting both of us in a DO OR DIE situation, where also the time period for doing was over now....now I was left with DIE only.

I somehow put my head out of the car window and gulping the continuous lump in my throat, I called for Derek.
He turned around at me with his quizzically disturbed countenance.

"I.... I'm.....I'm having it now Derek.....my....my water broke.....I'm sorry.. " and I clasped my mouth shut as the definite pain of knowing that you are going to die....was immaculate and overruling everything coming in the way to cope it up. I couldn't be just normal witty self and control it. It was being too much.

Suddenly I felt my minora labia expanding or what, the pain was immense for few seconds. I held my bump tightly and laid my back on the headboard spreading my legs a little. It was for a few seconds only but very painful thing. No wonder giving birth is the hardest most thing one have to do on earth, and they consider us women weak. Noobs!

Derek came running to me.
"Are you okay? Hike will take the man in the taxi, sit here I'm taking you to the hospital okay....just breathe.. " he said and I just nodded to him as I was still recovering from the contraction pain.

He went back to hike and then I saw a taxi stopping by and Alex coming out of it. They then took the injured man and put him inside the taxi. Derek came running to us and taking the driver's seat, he ignited the car as fast as he could while I laid there silently looking at him. I didn't even notice when Angela and Lucifer left us already.

All weird kind of thoughts were rushing in my brain. I hadn't even talked to my mother in all these months and now I was going to die, I  wanted to talk to her as I knew a mother would wanna know when her child will be in grave dangers like this. My child was in danger too, my child was about to die too and all because of me. There was no way in hell I was ever going to forgive myself for it. No amount of work or chances could ever undone that...what I did with us.
People scarcely get chances to understand their heinous life changing drastic mistakes and understand the consequences, I somehow did but I should have known it was all for nothing. I couldn't fix it. It wasn't my job anyway to kill someone for myself.