The Void/ The Nothing

Turning around

I DID IT!!

I finally was able to stop. For a quick second.

I stopped going forward. I was able to stop moving forward. I'm now walking backwards, to the direction I was walking from for hundreds of eons.

It's not like I can't see where I'm going. I did a full one-eighty. I ran faster than I ever had in the past eternity.

For once since I've been here, I was able to feel. I was finally able to cry, to laugh, to cry out!! I felt my body shift with emotions finally flooding in my whole being. I felt wind. I felt speed picking up! I was yelling, tears streaming down my eyes, I felt my heartbeat for the first time EVER!! I felt everything around me. My hair flowing with the speed of my running, the shirt rubbing against my body as I sprinted down the nothing, the void, passing what took me three eons finally taking me what I assumed was three seconds. I've felt joy overflow me as I took each step closer and closer to what I was leaving behind.

I heard my name again. IT WAS MY NAME!!! I let out a laugh with a cry and I screamed out, "I'm almost there!!! I'm almost home!!!!"

As quickly as my joy and happiness filled me, sudden dread over came me the closer I got to what I assumed was the entrance to the nothing.

I've done this before. My memories came back to me the closer I got to...

"Light!!" I laughed.

There was actual light where I was running to. Something I finally recognised.

As the smile grew onto my face, the quicker it began to dissipate. Fear, regret, and concern finally filled my face as I was now meters from the giant light.

I stopped three meters from the light portal thing that brought me here. It all came back to me, like a flash of lightning striking a tree during a dry season.

I fell to me knees as I heard my friends, my family, and everyone I have just let down talking for the first time in ages.

"We can't afford to drop her in there again. For her, it'd have been too long for her to even remember why she went under in the first place. If she wakes again without doing what she promised, I'd have to go under." A male friend of mine said.

"You don't understand, only she's strong enough to pull this off." A female said.

"But if we keep putting her under and she keeps coming back to say she was fighting the urge to move forward and she just ran back to finally feel again, that cause much problems with her psyche." Another male's voice said.

"She knew the risks of doing this. If she failed again, then that's it for all kind." The first male said.

"She's been under for quite some time now. Should we pull her back?" Another female said.

"It's only been five minutes. Last time, it was fifteen minutes." The first female said.

Fifteen minutes? Last time?

How many times have I actually done this? Maybe I should turn back around. Maybe I can still do what it was I came here to do. Five minutes I've been under? Maybe I can get it done if I run that light speed I was running earlier.

I prepare to sprint of again when another voice chimes in.

My voice.

"I'm tired. I don't want to go on."

What?!? That was a lie!! I am ready to go back. I can do it this time. I have to!!

"We have to pull her back, now!!!" The second female said.

"No!! She has to come back on her own. If we tamper with it like the first time, she'd never sleep in real life for the proper time like the rest of us. It would feel like eight hours to her, but in reality, it would be seconds." The second male said.

I took a breath, and had my back facing the light portal.

"I can do this. I'll fix everything. I'm going to find Lucifer, and God. I'm going to tell them that this war needs to stop." I said in the void and on the other side of the portal.

"She can hear us?" The first male nearly cried it seem.

"PLEASE DON'T. JUST COME BACK, WE'LL FIND SOMETHING ELSE TO FIX THIS!!" The second female shouted.

I looked back at the portal one last second as I whispered, hoping they'd hear it.

"I'm sorry."

I hear two of them screaming to pull me out now, and the other two screaming not to. There's a cluster of things happening on the other side of the portal.

I hold back my tears as I sprint forward and hear their voices fade of fighting whether to pull me back or let me continue what we started to save all kind.