Monochrome Kisses {Reddie/IT Oneshots}

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This is stop me from crying
Any mistakes please tell me
Song recommendation:please don't go girl.....I'm listening to it rn ʕ'• ᴥ•̥'ʔ
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Richie sighed as he sat down at his lunch table, he is usually the last one there so he was always squished between Stan  and Eddie but when Richie feels his left shoulder go cold he looked at the empty space next to him

"Where the fuck did he go" the raven haird boy mumbled to himself "where who go rich" bev asked putting down her sandwich "Eddie, he was just walking with me to lunch" everyone glanced at each other "come on now rich havnt we told you stop doing that" Stan said not meeting the others eyes "stop what?" Richie finally glanced back at everyone but he was just met with sad, mad or disappointed looks "guys?" Even more scilence "fine then be like that" the trashmouth stood up walking away from the group of people to find the only boy who dosnt ignore or be rude to him

After rounding the corner he found said boy sitting under the bleachers "well well well Eddie spaghetti, found you" Richie sat next to him "I wasn't hiding" the brown haired boy giggled which made Richie's heart flutters as he sat next to him "why are you here and not with the rest of us" Richie poked at Eddie's rib cage but the boy just grabbed his hand always so cold Richie thought at the sudden touch and it was true, Eddie was always cold, even when Richie snuck into his room for late night cuddles on the hottest nights

"Someone was going to start a argument, I love them but not in the best mind set to deal with it"
"Good call I was there for not even five{5} minuets and I stormed off there all being short...but not as short as you eds" Richie leaned his elbow against the smaller boy "stop, why do you always need to touch me" even though he was complaining Eddie lent into every part that his body was touching the other "call me crazy eds but if I don't touch you I have this feeling your gonna fly away" Eddie looked at the boy large brown eyes meeting coke bottle glasses "I'm not going anywhere rich" the boys voice was comfertable whisper, there faces close "how ever I do have some where to be" Eddie stood up and Richie heart stoped for a second "I promise I'll see you after school, I'll even meet you in your room befor you get there" Eddie said to comfort Richie and Richie believed him cuse some how when ever he needed it Eddie was always by his side

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"I'm getting real sick of this guy's" Stan said eyes not looking up from his books "it's been years" "stanny come on he took it real hard" mike defended the boys actions "hey I'm worried about him alright but he's not the only one who took it hard okay we-" befor Stan could finish his statement a gush of wind came out of no where knocking his drink all over him "SHIT" the boy stood up looking at his know dripping t-shirt as the rest of the group burst into laughter "this is not fucking funny" the boy gatherd his stuff and grabbing some napkins befor walking off

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Richie swung his front door open, his house would be empty for at least another  half hour, Richie left school early so he could beat Eddie home, however once he got to his room Eddie was sitting on his bed, reading a comic book "holy crap eds what the hell you sceard me" Eddie looked at the boy laughing "told you I would be hear" Eddie winked at him "but school dosnt end for another half hour did you leave early?"
"I did indeed leave early" Eddie wore a sad smile but just dug his face into his book
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It had been two hours since Richie came home and the boys talked about everything and anything, and Richie's heart felt like it was beating like hell everytime Eddie would touch him or he could feel his cheeks grow warm at eddies laugh, be couldn't take it anymore

"Eddie I have to tell you something" Eddie looked at the boy smiling "what is it trashmouth?", Richie took a sharp breath "I love you more then a friend, I love you in a romantic way" eddie face fell and Richie felt his heart stop "oh rich, you can't love me" Eddie voice was soft "why cuse loving boys is wrong? I don't care eds I love you" Richie took Eddie's face in his hands "cuse you can't love soemthing that's gone" Richie looked at him confused, but Eddie just got up and left Richie's house leaving the tall boy to cry into his pillow for the rest of the day, he cried in confusion and frustration and rejection

He grabbed his Walkman looking through his tapes he couldn't find one that felt right in the moment, but then he saw one at the back of draw, it was dusty looked like it hadn't be touched in a few months or longer, the red ink said "the one we should have given him" it had broken hearts drawn all over it, with a sad smile be pop it into his Walkman slipping his headphones over his ears cranking the volume max, rembering why he made the tape, all the meaning of the songs, all the emotions and as the last song ended there was small message Richie forgot her recorded

"Hey eddie spaghetti, it's Richie,...it's been a few months and i still miss you, I never got to tell you I love you and that huants me, now I'm not good with words like Ben so I'll keep this short, I have two tapes with your name on it and I'm sorry you can't hear them but I promise Eddie I'm never gonna forget you, I'm sorry I couldn't protect you....bey Eddie spaghetti....I love you"

And then a soft click as the tape ended, Richie remembered the day after he made the tape Eddie's mom let him outside after keeping him in cuse of the summer and he was sick...or that's how he remembered it

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Richie Walkman stuck to his side, playing the tape on repeat, the halls where empty, as be dragged his high tops along the floor

He reached opening his locker throwing his bag In and slamming it shut, the sound sceard Richie as it sudden, in frustration Richie kicked the locker "fuck you" he whisperd kicking again "fuck you fuck you fuck you" he said every time he kicked his locker till there was a noticeable dent in it "Richie" the boy suddenly turned his head to be met with Stan's, there was a short comfertableb scilence for a bit befor Richie broke down there and then "he gone Stan he's gone for good" clinging on to the Jewish boys shirt both of them sliding down the lockers "I know rich" he rubbed circle's on his freinds back, they stayed like that for what seemed forever till Richie's crying became sniffles and then scilence "why him Stan, he was a good kid and he had so much going for him" Richie smiled thinking of all the talks he had with Eddie befor that summer about how they want to get out of Derry and what they would do "it's all that stupid clowns fault, everything that happens to us is cuse of it" Stan just smiled at the boy checking his watch "why don't we go give Eddie a goodbey, it's been a year since you visited the grave" Stan was right, Richie had completely represed the funeral, he just remembers Eddie being out of school for a few weeks cuse he was sick then when Richie was at his lowest he came back

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Stan had sent a mass text out to all the losers to skip after second period, to go home and get nice clothes on, they all piled into the grave yard going down the line till they came to a grave stone, it only had a few flowers but it was well kept, Richie read the words across the stone

'Eddie kazpbrak'
1976-1989
Heaven gains another

Richie felt the tears come to his eyes again and he sat down Infront of it
"Hey eds, it's been a while, well no it's been a few hours but I'm still not sure if that was you or my imagination" Richie smiled as the other loses held on to eachother "there is still so much I had to tell you, you left me last September, since that time I've been so alone, in a sense" tears fell as Richie's words caught in his throat "I'm still not sure I'm ready to stop pretending if I'm honest, you where my world, my Eddie spaghetti" they all stood in scilence for a an hour slowly leaving one by one

"Richie, I have to go do you want a ride home" stans voice was soft "I think Im walk home Stan the man, thank you" Richie's eyes never left the grave

Richie stayed for another ten{10} minutes until he stood up and made his way to the entrance of the grave yard Turing around he waved a little sad goodbey to the boy, a small breeze hit Richie's face, the breeze was soft and warm in a way, almost like a quick hug, Richie let out a small laugh "thanks eddie, for everything" he left the gate close behind him, every time he stoped on his way home and felt tears well up the breeze would hit him again.

Eddie new that's what the boy needed a small breeze to say it's okay

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A/n this isn't the best but it took me a week to write cuse I kept stoping ʕ'• ᴥ•̥'ʔ