Future Rejection

Chapter 9 - Desperation

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CONOR'S P.O.V:

We were sitting in the cute little restaurant that Kyle picked out, I loved this place as a kid.

The bright 50's style lamps were shining directly on our table, as if we were at the center of the universe.
I always felt like this with him.

After I had ordered, he started to act strangely. He was running his foot up and down my leg, sending shivers down my spine. I don't think he realised what kind of affect he had on me.

His foot was getting further upwards, I didn't know what to do about it. Could he have some kind of feelings for me? Or is this all just him being his usual flirty self?

The waitress came and gave us our teas. I instantly recognised her from school. Megan was a close friend when I was in my phase of depression. I don't think Kyle realised who it was.

Was he jealous?

Maybe he was.

I could feel his foot between my legs, making me slightly hotter. I didn't know how much I could take before I would have to make an excuse to leave.

I was engaged in polite conversion with Megan. Suddenly I felt Kyle push downwards. I gasped and she looked at me with genuine confusion.

"Is that all then? " she asked.

"Umm" I looked at Kyle, and he nodded.

"Y-y-es that's f-f-f-fine-agh! " I shrieked

Megan laughed under her breath at Kyle when she saw what was going on, and went to serve at another table.

I was getting uncomfortably turned on by this, but I understood his game. Keep acting like nothing was happening.

I took a sip of tea, just before I realised what he was going to do. I felt the pressure and my body shot forwards and spitting the tea over the table.

"What? " Kyle smiled innocently.

I just sat opposite him, staring for a few seconds. I stood up.

"Come on then, let me show you the apartment"

"Of course!" Kyle said, also standing up.

I was getting nervous as we arrived at my place. I knew that I loved him and I was starting to doubt whether I could cope with him being around me for 7 months.

I unlocked the door and opened it to Kyle. He stepped in and dumped his bag in the middle of the hallway.

By the time I had gone inside he was already sitting on the sofa with a glass of water.

"Make yourself at home then"
"Oh I will..."

The look on his face made me shiver. I wanted him, but the fact that I couldn't have him made me want him more than ever.

I walked round and sat on the sofa next to him.

"Where am I going to sleep?" He said as he turned to look at me.
"I'll take the sofa, you can have my bed"
"Why don't we just share the bed?"

I froze. My mind was in a mad rush of thoughts. Most of them were more inappropriate than I would ever dream of speaking aloud.

"Conor? It's okay if you feel uncomfortable about it" Kyle said.

I could tell that the silence was making him uncomfortable, but I couldn't tell him why I didn't want to share a bed.

We just sat in silence.

I stared at him. He turned and stared at me. Neither of us said a word for what felt like hours.

Quietly, Kyle spoke.
"Conor is there anything you want to tell me? "

I didn't reply.

Kyle took a deep breath and started to say.
"Conor, I..."

I had restrained myself for so long, but the vulnerable yet caring look in his eyes made me lose all rational thought.

Whilst he was in mid-sentance I leaned over and kissed him passionately on the lips.

I could tell that Kyle was uncomfortable, but I couldn't stop.

The kiss was getting more heated and lustful, I stuck my tongue in his mouth and explored every part of it.

I knew I couldn't keep it up much longer. Kyle wasn't kissing back.

When I broke the kiss, I looked at him. The confusion and what looked like disgust in his eyes broke my heart.

He got up, and spun around to leave.

"Wait! " I cried. Tears now streaming down my face.

But he had already gone.

What had I done?

Dedicated to DeanneAdams and The_Saladmanders