One-sided Ache (short story)

The One's Side

The One's Side

"Hindi kita gusto."

I said as I turn my back against the girl I love the most and the brother I grew up with with love. My brother, who loves the girl I love.

Naglakad ako paalis sa paningin nila but in my peripheral vision, I can see them laughing. Maybe its them whose in love with each other. Maybe I'm the extra. I smiled at the thought. Idiot and coward, that's me.

Pumunta ako sa locker room at binuksan ang locker ko. Pictures of my Gianna everywhere. She was so close and yet so far. I can't love her. It's wrong and I'm not the one for her.

And besides, I need to let go.

They said, love requires sacrifice. Mahal ko ang kapatid ko and I love Gianna. But I can't choose between them. My brother and I shared alot of trials together and he let go alot of things just for me. Maybe it's time for me to let go... And let my brother shine.

Love is not selfish. I can't keep Gianna just because I love her. Marami pa siyang pwede makahalubilo and one of them is my brother. Ayaw ko na when time comes, she'll leave me or she will regret staying with me. Thinking of the pain stings me too much.

Isinara ko ang locker ko at umalis na dun thinking of what if's that was not bound to happen.

Just maybe letting go is the answer. Maybe this requited love will fade eventually. And maybe, this will save me from the future one sided ache I'm feeling right now.