10 Years From Now ~ RAURA (ON HOLD)

chapter 2~clean break

A/N: hiiiii everyone idk when i'm gonna finish/release this chapter but i linked Fade above because it came out today and i'm in LOVE i can't stop listening to it ahhhh i highly recommend taking a listen ross and rocky killed it 

also side note...i mean no disrespect to thomas or jaz in real life i'm so here for whatever makes laura or ross happy but for the sake of the story they're lowkey antagonists but no hate towards the real them kk got it good :)

Ross' POV

September 12, 2023

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I stare a hole through the ceiling above my bed and let out a sigh. I've been laying on my bed doing just this for a really long time now, and thoughts have not stopped racing through my head since I first lied down.

I have been dating Jaz for almost 4 years now, and I'm almost 27. I hate thinking about that because I always feel old and washed up but that's besides the point. You would think I'd be about to propose by now, but something's been off. It's sort of like I don't even have a girlfriend anymore. We never see each other, and it's like we don't fit together anymore. Like I guess we're not as physically invested in one another like we used to be? I don't know. It's more like I have a best friend that I rarely see and occasionally hook up with rather than someone who's supposed to be the love of my life. 

I'm trying to be logical here, is it really worth it? Sure, I love Jaz, but I don't know if it's the same way I used to. And that's kind of scary, because I'm not entirely sure that she's feeling that way too, although I think she is. Like I said, I'm 27 soon. Jaz is 29. All my siblings are married now, even Ryland. And he's younger than me. If i'm not gonna propose why are we holding on to this when we both ultimately want a marriage and a family?

I have to end this. 

Ugh. I sigh for the hundredth time in the past hour. Okay. Pros of ending this relationship: in the long run we're both happier and can move on with our lives. Cons: what if this is just a bump in the road and we break up over nothing? 

Okay but would this big a bump in the road come 4 years into our relationship? Yeah, I don't think so. I let out another sigh right as my phone rings, snapping me out of my deep thoughts. I push myself up on one elbow and I reach for my phone with my other arm. It's Jaz. I freeze, wondering if this is the time to do it, then decide against it, not knowing yet what to say. 

"Hey Ross." I hear on the other end, followed by a short sigh.

"Hi Jaz, what's up?" Jaz almost never calls during the daytime, so I'm a bit caught off guard here.

"Um, so listen. I really need to talk to you about something, and honestly I should probably do this face to face but I don't know when we'll see each other again and this is kind of important and I'm sorry this isn't in person-" Jaz starts rambling out of nervousness, though I'm not sure why. Honestly, her rambling gave me a bit of nostalgia, but I can't put my finger on what it reminds me of.

"Woah take a breath, Jaz. I get it, I'm sure talking over the phone will be fine. Now what's wrong?" I interrupt, now curious at what's so urgent.

"Okay, I'll just say it. Quick and painless. Okay." She takes a slow deep breath in before starting again. "I don't think our relationship is going anywhere." She spits out fast, exhaling heavily at the end. "I mean, I highly doubt you were about to propose or anything, and we've both been so busy, I feel like we're going in different directions." I let out a small breath of relief that Jaz shares the same feelings as me, and that I don't have to be the one to bring it up. 

"If I'm being honest, I've been feeling the same way too. I was actually trying to figure out how to tell you when you called." I admit, a weight coming off my chest. "I just think we've reached the end of us."

"Yeah, unfortunately you're right. I'm glad you agree, that made this a lot easier." Jaz responds, sounding calmer than before.

"Right. So I guess I'll see you around, Jaz?" I say.

"Of course. Bye Ross." Jaz hangs up. Wow I was not expecting that to say the least. That was way easier than breakups should be. I lay back down and stare at the ceiling once more. This time, there's no stress on me. Is it weird to not feel that upset? Because I don't. Not that Jaz was a burden, but holding on to our relationship was causing more hurt than good. And now, I'm single for the first time in 4 years. Wow. I don't even know what to do with myself.

I reach to my bedside table and grab the charger to plug in my phone. 

"Oh, the power I hold..." I say out loud to myself. I then look down at the power cord in my hand and realize what I just said and a smirk stretches across my face. That was for sure a Laura joke. The moment my brain thinks that, I let out a tiny gasp. Laura. That's what Jaz's rambling reminded me of. And that cheesy joke that only Laura would laugh at? Wow. It's been a while. About 4 years since we saw or spoke to each other. I left out a soft sigh. I wonder if she's still mad at me...

A/N: Okay I'm so sorry for the shortest chapter in the history of chapters....and that I made you wait for it. It's kind of just a filler and I needed to get through it sooooo sorry! I promise they'll get longer and juicier and better just you wait...lol. Please comment and vote! Leave suggestions if you have any!