Is the Captain okay

Feeling worse

Captain Barnacles P.O.V

I woke up the next morning tired and angry, I didn't want to wake up. I go inside my bathroom and pick up my razor, I pull up my sleeves and cut a lot, I washed my arm and pulled down my sleeves. I change into my uniform. I go to the launch bay, I head to my station.

(Later)

Kwazii left in the gup B. And I'm just doing my work. I wanna die, I wanna die so bad. I hear my phone ring, I see that my sister Bianca is calling me. I take the Octoshoot up to my room and I answer.

Bianca: hey Barnacles

Captain Barnacles: hey sis how are you

Bianca: I'm good Ursa made a friend her name is Lily

Captain Barnacles: that's great

Bianca: Orson and Ursa absolutely love 3rd grade and Ursa told them that you were her uncle and no one believed her

Captain Barnacles: I don't understand why

Bianca: I don't either but I have a favor to ask

Captain Barnacles: yeah

Bianca: I got to do important stuff tomorrow I need you to pick up the cubs from school and watch them

Captain Barnacles: Okay

Bianca: bye

Captain Barnacles: bye

I hung up and sighed, my sisters a great lie director she can tell when I'm sad Its was so hard pretending to be happy. I don't mind picking up the cubs I love them. I return to work and Kwazii comes back, "Hey Captain" Kwazii said. I look at him, he's so adorable. We did what we ussaly do each day.

(Later)

I was laying in my bed after I had just cut myself again. I tried to get sleep but again my thoughts kept me up, I look at my clock it's five in the morning. I get up and go inside the bathroom, I pull up my sleeves and grab the razor. I cut I can feel the razor in my skin it hurts, but it distracts me from the emotional pain.

I cut a couple of times and stop, I put down the razor and wash off my arms, I would've done more if I wasn't picking up the cubs today. I head to the launch bay and go to my station, I wait for the others to get up. At eight Kwazii came out of the Octoshoot and stood next to me.

"Hey" Kwazii said, "Hey Kwazii" I said looking at him. "

(Later)

Dashie comes to her station and Kwazii is still next to me. I check the time it's 9:30, I have to pick the cubs at 3. I sigh I feel unhappy.

(Even later because why not)

Its time to go get the cubs, "Kwazii I have to pick up my Niece and nephew, I'll be back soon." I say, " okay" Kwazii said. I left in the gup A and I went to them if doesn't take too long because the author said so.

(Later)

I pick up the cubs and we leave, I scratch at my arms a lot, "Uncle Barnacles how are you" Ursa asked,  "I'm good" I say, I didn't feel good I felt worthless.