As I lay down, feeling excited to go to sleep. Only in hopes of seeing my blue mystery again. I close my eyes and doze off to the beauty of the image in my head. Hours later, I jump awake and look at the clock, 3:20am! Of course!...Of course I couldnt have the one thing I wanted. The darkness would come and create a nightmare right after such a beautiful dream the night before. It's always there to remind me that there's a bad side to everything. As I pull my knees into my chest, and sit here thinking to myself "just go away! How do I get you to go away?" "I don't want this part forever. I want to be happy." No matter what I say to my self the darkness is part of my fantasies and ....I'm slowly starting to understand that now. If this is how it's going to be I will find some way of being happy in the darkness too. Was the dream before just a tease? The darkness reeling me like a fish caught on a hook? No matter how hard I tug to get away, the hook has pierced my skin and is inching towards my bone. The more I let it get to me, the more control it has. Beginning to think that the darkness is me, the twisted side of me at least. I lie back down and toss and turn until I'm finally comfortable. Dare i go back to sleep? How can I sleep knowing what terrors are lurking around in side my head. Around ever twist and turn they...are uncontrollable. What has become of me? I shouldn't be scared, this is my fault. My dark twisted mind has dug it's teeth in and refuses to let go. This will never end without bringing me to the brink of insanity. I except the challenge.....
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Dark Twisted Fantasies
RomanceA hopeless feeling of disconnection and fear, while the desperation for more leaves you yearning as it grows. Festering fantasies from within the darkness, scratching and screaming to be freed. What are they? Who are they? Will it ever end or foreve...
