Dark Twisted Fantasies

Dark Twisted Nightmares

As I lay down, feeling excited to go to sleep. Only in hopes of seeing my blue mystery again. I close my eyes and doze off to the beauty of the image in my head. Hours later, I jump awake and look at the clock, 3:20am! Of course!...Of course I couldnt have the one thing I wanted. The darkness would come and create a nightmare right after such a beautiful dream the night before. It's always there to remind me that there's a bad side to everything. As I pull my knees into my chest, and sit here thinking to myself "just go away! How do I get you to go away?" "I don't want this part forever. I want to be happy." No matter what I say to my self the darkness is part of my fantasies and ....I'm slowly starting to understand that now. If this is how it's going to be I will find some way of being happy in the darkness too. Was the dream before just a tease? The darkness reeling me like a fish caught on a hook? No matter how hard I tug to get away, the hook has pierced my skin and is inching towards my bone. The more I let it get to me, the more control it has. Beginning to think that the darkness is me, the twisted side of me at least. I lie back down and toss and turn until I'm finally comfortable. Dare i go back to sleep? How can I sleep knowing what terrors are lurking around in side my head. Around ever twist and turn they...are uncontrollable. What has become of me? I shouldn't be scared, this is my fault. My dark twisted mind has dug it's teeth in and refuses to let go. This will never end without bringing me to the brink of insanity. I except the challenge.....