El by El

You & I.

I can be enough & your eyes would still wander.

you can say you love me & it just be the idea of me.

I can feed your heart & you'd still share it with someone else.

you could come home to me every night & be elsewhere during the day.

I can feel you drifting away from me & you'd say it's all in my head.

you want me around for the comfort but you've found your breath of fresh air.

I continue to hold on to the hope that all of you will return to me but my wishes fall on deaf ears.

your heart races whenever you see her & mine breaks cause my heart doesn't anymore.

I wanna talk to you but i don't know where to start.

you feel the tension in the air & continue to avoid the elephant in the room.

the weight of the elephant leaves the worst pain on my chest causing shallow breaths.

I reach out to you & instead you recoil.

you don't want to deal with the consequences of your actions so you leave me to deal with this pressure alone.

I deal with this pressure alone, with no explanation of where it came from & you watch me with her at your side.

you believe if you don't talk about it then it'll go away but i'm living the lies you've made me feel butterflies with because you can't deal.

I cry with everything in me at the thought that every flutter in my stomach at your words might have been a sign.

a sign to let go of you before it's too late.

I didn't listen because i loved you and thought you loved me. i guess not.

you finally came to back to me but not as the man i love but the man who broke me and left me to deal with your actions alone.

I finally realized you been the man of my dreams but the not man of my reality.

I put hope and all this love into this man i envisioned you to be only to get the man that can't commit, cowers from his responsibilities, lies to make himself feel better, cheats on women that have everything going for themselves.

I realize you were never to good to be true, i made it as if you were.

you have been the person i see the whole entire time.

the difference between you & i, ill find that love that i envisioned and you'll be miserable because the love that was meant for you was me but you weren't meant for me at all.

Thank you✨

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