I Want Ken Not Barbie {Nanbaka: Uno x Hajime}

1) Dads Always Saying

My dads always saying, "brat when you grow up, your gonna find a nice lady make sure you act like a REAL fucking man. You'll live the life just like Barbie and Ken, now suck it up and forget this fucking nonsense of liking guys."

Uno's eyes shot open at the memory that just played in his head while he slept. He slowly sat up in his bed as his legs stayed down on the mat in his cell, he took a second to regain his breathing. Thinking about THOSE days, THOSE days of when before he started to get locked up, THOSE days of when Uno still lived with his father and how things were just the worst when Uno was with him. Uno and his father never really had a GREAT relationship, Uno's father was a cold hearted man that refused to even notice the fact that Uno was alive.

Uno was his only son.

Yet he chose to just pretend that Uno wasn't even alive.

After years of trying to get his father to notice him, Uno just gave up.

'What on earth was the point in trying? He was a cold hearted man who made it perfectly clear that he wished I was never born.' Uno thought to himself. If you asked him how he knew what his father said, he would simply tell you that he heard his dear father say that to him 24/7 of his life.

"If you didn't want kids than maybe you should have kept your fucking dick in your pants." Uno said quietly to himself, it was like a whisper but you could still hear him perfectly clear. Uno sighed again as he laid back down on his bed, he slid his arms under the pillow as he looked up at the ceiling.

Uno closed his eyes as another memory popped up.

"I really really like you! Please go out with me!"

"Are you fucking joking?"

"N-no!"

"You honestly think that I would date a fucking fag like you? Your so fucking pathetic!"

Uno reopened his eyes, that was a memory he wishes he could forget. Uno was 13 when he confessed to a guy he had the biggest crush on in middle school, after that the guy than mocked and made fun of him.

That's when the bullying started.

That's when all the homophobic words and slurs where throw at him.

Uno realized that if he said it was a joke and pretended to go after girls then maybe it would stop. It did stop when he started to flirt with girls and when he would kiss them from time to time, Uno hated it, he hated every single thing about it. He wanted to be with a guy not a girl, he wanted to kiss a guy not a girl, he wanted to have a relationship with a guy and not have a relationship with a girl that only lasted for a week.

It's always hard when Uno thinks of the past, it's always hard for me, especially when it comes to his sexuality. All throughout Uno's life he always found himself being more attractive to guys than girls, he knew that there was nothing wrong with it, he knew that he should be proud of who he is and not lie.

But it was hard because he wanted his father to finally pay attention to him and maybe they could finally have something in common and bond.

He just wanted his dad to finally pay attention to him.

He just wanted to have the father-son relationship that all the students in his class had.

That's all he ever wanted.

Uno looked out the window in cell 13 and saw that the sky changed from a dark blue to a bright red that blended in with the shining yellow the middle becoming a soft orange. He didn't even realize that it was slowly turning morning, he didn't even realize that the sun was coming up actually.

Uno closed his eyes again and another memory popped up.

This one was a bit more of a good memory.

"You are an idiot #11." Kiji said.

Uno looked at the guard he went to and looked at him wide eyed. "What do ya mean?" Uno asked.

"Uno," Kiji said, Uno knew that if any of the guards uses an inmate's REAL name then they know the talk is gonna get serious. "You should not let what other people think of you control your life. You should be proud of who you are and LOVE who YOU want too."

Uno looked down at the ground as Kiji continued. "Uno, I can't tell you what to do. I can't tell you how to live your life. I just want you to know that you are safe here, your father and your old bullies can't hurt you while you are here. You are safe and you are free to be YOURSELF."