Broken Fame

The invisible him

I realized he was different in the way he acted. There was something more raw and true than what I am used to. It showed more true and real feelings then everything else I have seen. When I saw an interview he did not seem fake but just a working guy that I would like to talk to. I did not see anything but someone I might want to have coffee with and just chill.

Because he is an actor with probably a big following he becomes invisible. Someone I see for who they might really be but can not get to. I never want to let my guard down. Like if a guy I "dated" thinks I had my guard down then that's crap. Until now because he put it down even for a bit. That is terrifying to me. It makes me want to dance and listen to music while crying because yes that is how I cry. 

Two people who are invisible to one another. Like a dance in my head. Maybe even an unfinished song. All this invisible girl wants is to talk to this invisible boy and get to know him. Even just be a friend. Not a fake friend but a true and real one. 

Why couldn't this guy just be a normal person I run into. I could get to know him. We could hang. We would talk and call. Instead he is an actor that might think I am a crazy fangirl. 

So here I lay vulnerable in a new way and hoping he would talk to this girl................................