~Deku's POV~ I feel myself wake up and feel the warm sun hit my skin. I look at the time on my phone. "Shit I'm gonna be late for school!" I yell rather quietly. I rush to get ready. I get ready quietly so I don't wake "him" up. "I can't belive mom would date a guy like him! " I think. I go to the bathroom to change. I slip off my clothes and begin to change. I look at myself. Your disgusting. Says the voice in my head. I know. I take out my self harm box hidden under the towels. I take out a razor from the box. One cut. No one loves you. Says the voice again. Two cuts. Why are you even alive? Three cuts. Four cuts. Five cuts. Six cuts..... 24 cuts. I look at my bloody cuts on my arms. I take out fresh bandages and cover my hands with them. I put on my uniform and head out the door. ~ At UA~ I walk through the gates of UA. You don't deserve to be here. I heard the voice say. I know. A crappy kid like me doesn't even deserve to live. I sigh and walk to my locker. I grab my books and head to class. When I walk in I see all the usual faces I see every day. I see Todoroki's beautiful face in the back before I take a seat. You really think you have a chance with Todoroki? Well maybe if I try hard enough.. Your worthless. Todoroki is way out of your league. Your right... Am I ever wrong? N-No... I see Mr. Aizawa walk in and the room goes quiet. "Everyone to there seats. Class is going to begin soon." Says Mr. Aizawa in his usual tierd face. I see Kacchan with an angry face as usaul. As class goes on, I can't help but stare at Todoroki. His beautiful eyes shine as the sun hits the classroom. " Oi nerd!" Kacchan says. "Why are you looking at Icy-hot? Do you like him or something?" All eyes are on me. Even Todoroki is looking at me. My face turns hot red. I cover my face. " N-No I'm not!" I say with my hands on my face. I can hear the giggles and whispers behind and infront of me. This day can't get any worse. " Settle down class." Says Mr. Aizawa. I pinch myself with the urge to cut myself. I raise my hand. " Yes Midoriya?" Says Aizawa. "M-May I g-go to the restroom p-please?" I say. "No. You may go after class." Says Mr. Aizawa. " I slam my head as hard as I can onto my desk. I need to cut. ~Todoroki POV~ I hear the whispers and giggles and people hear what Kacchan told the freckled face boy. I start to blush a little but not enough for anyone to see. I act like nothing happend. But inside I'm hot red. I really do love Midoriya. But who would love me, a lonley boy with a dark past. I contine to stare off into space, thinking of Midoriya. " Todoroki? TODOROKI!" I hear Mr. Aizawa say. I get back to the real world. "Todoroki class ended 10 minuetes ago." Says Mr. Aizawa. "Sorry sir. I just was lost in my thoughts." I say. I grab my bag and head out of class. ~The next day at UA~ I walk to class. All I could think of was how Kacchan embarresed me. That asshole. I walk into class. I see everyone stare at me. Great. I speed run to my desk and put my head down. Class starts. I get lost in my thoughts. All I see is my step-dad touching me in places that are private. I feel a tap on my sholder. "Ahh please d-d-don't hurt m-me! P-please..." I say. All eyes are on me. I see Mr. Aizawa look shocked as he stops reading. I look behind me to see Momo's finger on my sholder. She looked worried. I guess she was the one who tapped on me. The room was quiet. You could hear a pin drop. I get up. Take out my razor from my backpack and slid it into my pocket quickly so no one could see. I get up. With tears in my eyes. I start to run out of the room but I bump into Todoroki's chest on the way out. I fell to the ground and hit my head on the side of Mr. Aizawa's desk. " Oh my god are you ok Deku?!?!" I hear Uraraka say. It's fuzzy. I see Todoroki standing infront of me with a blushing face, but he looked also worried. " Deku are you alright?!" Says Mr. Aizawa. Todoroki grabs my wrist to help me up. But that was were I cut deep in, so I felt a sharp pain and screamed. I saw the terrified faces as my classmates tried to help. I got up. " I'M FUCKING PERFECT OK?!" I say with a face full of tears. I run out of the classroom. ~Todoroki's POV~ I'm in shock when I see Deku on the floor. His beautiful forest green eyes are full of fear and tears. I try to help him up. I grab his wrists to pull him up but he screams in pain. I drop his wrist, and put my hands on my mouth. I start to tear up. I see people trying to help. " I'M FUCKING PERFECT OK?!" Says Deku with his eyes full of tears. He runs out of the room. I can hear the ghasps and he runs out. He never curses. I stand there. Speachless. I feel worthless. I could have helped, but I just caused more pain onto him. I fall onto the floor, and start to tear up. People are suprised. I never cried in school. I don't even show emotion at school. But right now it doesn't matter. All I care about right now is Deku. "What a crybaby." Says Bakugo. " Shut up." I say. " DON'T TELL ME TO SHUT UP ASSHOLE!" He says. " Calm down Bakugo!" Says Aizawa. You could see Bakugo is ready to fight because you can see the explosions in his hands getting ready. I don't care if Bakugo calls me names. He's an asshole he just doesn't know it yet. I continue to tear up in the thought that I hurt Deku. ~ Deku's POV~ I start to run as I tear up. I can't belive you just embarresed yourself infront of your crush. What a crybaby. It wasn't my fault... I just bumped into him... He probally thinks your weak. Probally... What did I tell you? I'm never wrong. I need to cut. I check to make sure I still have my razor. It's still there. I run to the bathroom. I look at myself. I look ugly. No one would love me. I take off my bandages and begin to cut myself. I cut and cut and cut until I can't fit anymore cuts on my hands. I put the bandages back on my hands. This day can't even get any worse.. ~After school~ After school, I start to walk home. I was held in later than others so I can get my head checked. I didn't want to. But Mr. Aizawa made me because I hit my head pretty bad. I start to shake as I think how my step-dad is gonna react once I get home this late. It's almost dinner time. Once I get home I see....
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Fanfiction--COMPLETED-- "Why can't I ever be enough?" "Why can't I just ever be loved?" "Am I useless to everyone?" *** Izuku Midoriya. A regular boy. If only p...
