In Her World (One Direction Fan Fiction)

This World Is Mad

-----Faith's POV-----

   Where am I? What just happened? Am I dead? Nope. Don't feel dead.

But, I'm definitely in a bed. I moved my fingers and toes and heard a couple of gasps. 

My eyes slowly fluttered open.

"Faith?" 

I turned my head hearing my neck crack a bit.

"Savannah? Jackson? What are you guys doing here? And where am I?"

"Faith you--you tried to commit suicide.." My best friend Savannah spoke.

"Oh." I mumbled, yeah..forgot about that.

"Why?" My other best friend Jackson asked.

"I don't know, I just felt that...that--" I spoke softly until I was interrupted by a woman is scrubs.

Oh, hospital.

"Hi! I heard you woke up, Faith! Welcome to the Memorial Hill Mental Institution! I'm Doctor Sterling, but you can call me Karen!" She said too cheery for my liking.

Wait-- Mental Institution?!

"What-- what do you mean by mental institution?" I said sitting up, causing my head to pound.

I winced slightly but kept up.

"Faith, you're going to be in here for the next couple months until you're back up on your feet." Savannah said letting tears run down her cheeks.

"Couple of months?!" 

"Faith, we did this for the best.." Jackson mumbled tears pooling in his eyes.

"For the best?! You think this is good for me?! I'll go insane trapped in here! Savannah,  Jackson don't do this to me." I cried.

"Im so sorry, Faith. We can't protect you, we're only kids and you don't necessarily have any real guardians." Savannah cried back.

"But why a mental institution?! You couldn't just put me up for adoption?" I yelled back fuming.

"It's for the best, Faith, we love you so much, and couldn't stand to see you hurt." Jackson said letting a tear get by.

"Well you did a sucky job! Cause I'm hurt worse than I ever was. My two best friends! The ones I can count in! The ones that will give be a shoulder to cry on! The ones I will always be there for! But that means nothing right? Everything in my life is a total mess up? Right? I'm a failure. You guys can go, take your sorrow and sympathy else were. I'm done." I said my face and shirt stained with tears. 

"Faith, please don't hate us." Savannah cried pushing towards me.

I pulled back. 

"Leave"

"Ms.Blake, Mr.Williams, I think it's time for you to leave." Karen said interrupting at the right time.

Hurt face was full of sadness and Jackson mirrored hers. 

"Go." I spoke sternly.

And with one quick glance, they were gone.

"Ms. Brinley, I know you don't want to be here but this will be the best for you." Karen said rubbing my back in a soothing way.

"Yeah, sure." I said sarcasm laced in my voice.

"Listen, it does suck being here. I understand, but you can't get better if you have these walls built up around you guarding you from the rest of the world, sweetie." She spoke sighing slightly.

"These walls are the only things keeping me sane. I'm afraid. These walls are the only things that prevent me from getting hurt too bad, and I know that makes no sense because of what I said to Savannah and Jackson but I can be hurt much worse and I..I don't think I would be able to handle that. These walls shield me from danger. But sometimes I think..maybe I'm the danger, maybe I cause all the screw ups." I said crying into Karen's lap.

"You see these? Heart-to-heart talks? You'll have these three days a week. And you can let it all out, and no one will ever know." Karen said sympathetically.

"I feel so alone." I said crying endlessly into her shirt.

"Believe it or not, Faith, there are a couple hundred other girls and boys who feel just as alone as you do, you're not alone." Karen smiled.

"But I don't know them."

"You will, cause a good twenty-five percent of them are in this building.

You'll get to meet some if you would like." She said pulling me up.

"They won't like me." I said plainly.

"And what makes you think that Ms.Brinley?"

"I'm unlikeable, I'll come into someone's life mess everything up then leave. I need to have someone. But I push everyone away" I said the tears stinging my eyes again.

"Faith, these kids think the exact same way as you, they think that everyone hates them, they think they push people away, honey, you're not alone." Karen said soothingly.

I nodded shakily.

"Karen, how did I get here?" 

"Well, your two friends walked in on you when you were trying to commit suicide, they called an ambulance, the ambulance took you to the hospital, they gave you some blood, stitched you up, it seemed you fell into a coma and your heart stopped but they brought you back and put you into a chemically induced coma and sent you out. They will be running check-ups on you, but they gave you the right of way to come here. Sweetie,  If it wasn't for your friends, you'd be dead."

"Really?"

"Really."

"Well, Karen?"

"Yes?"

"Can you fix me?"

"I will fix you, and I won't stop until I do it.

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Hai guys!

Well, most of the chapters will be longer but today well, was slow and I thought I should post something. 

Omg the boys performed at MSG they did amazing, I watched it by stream and omg, gah.

okay,

Comment/vote/fan !

-Gabrielax