MORE THAN FRIENDS/BENNY RODRIGUEZ/SEQUEL TO CLOSER THAN ENEMIES/

2/Feelings are sometimes painful yet exciting/

August 9, 2020

I turn and see my three best friends, Marissa, Angelina and Michelle. I gasp and go straight off the home base. Once we collide we all fall to the floor. I smile and feel tears fall onto my cheeks. They all yell questions at me, "why are you back!?"

"How come you didn't tell us anything!?" I laugh and sigh,

"Well I'm wanted to surprise you guys!" They all smile and then I go tense as Benny and Amanda come into my line of vision, he leans in slow, as his face caresses her cheek their lips connect, she smiles in the kiss and he twirls strands of her golden brown hair between his fingers, my heart clenches. He's not mine anymore. I snap out of it as Marissa sprints to someone, I turn and see Jordan walking through the gate she jumps into his arms and I feel loneliness hit me as everyone goes to their significant others. I sigh and sit against the fence and pull out my phone. Josh texted me but I decide to ignore it, then I feel the fence lean back more. I turn and see Carter sitting beside me.

"You looked a little lonely so I thought I'd join you." I smile and nod,

"Nice to know I'm not the only one single." Carter chuckles and nods,

"Girls just aren't for me, I'm more focused on baseball you know?" I laugh as the thoughts of Benny saying that to Jordan rush through my head,

"Hey I wouldn't say that because I know a boy who said that then dropped everything for one single girl." Carter laughs,

"What a stupid dude, she probably broke his heart." That stung and I tried my best not to over react,

"Actually-" I get interrupted,

"He broke hers." Benny finishes my sentence. I nod and look down. Carter puts two and two together,

"Oh wait, it was you guys?" I nod slowly and he sighs, "I'm sorry Jasmine I didn't mean anything by what I said." I nod and stand up dusting off my black jean shorts. I see Amanda and she gives me a small smile while she wraps her tiny arms around Benny's torso, like I used to do. I sigh and walk towards Jordan without another word, he smiles and I do the same but just like me he can see straight through my pain,

"You ready?" He asks gently trying not to upset. I nod holding back tears and he nods lovingly while grabbing Marissa's hand, we all walk out without another word. I sigh and then let the tears fall, nobody tries to tell me it's ok because they know it's not, I feel shaky as we walk up to our familiar house. I rush in and race to my room past my brother and Camila, my heart wrenches as the day floods through my brain, I'm lost in the thoughts I don't wanna be in, then the anger kicks in. I feel like smashing every memory I have of him, so that's what I do. I start with the picture. I pick it up and hold it in my two delicate fingers, I raise my arms up and let it fling out of my hands, the glass smashes and I watch the picture slip out of the frame. I pick it up between my fingers and feel the urge to shred it to pieces but my heart stops me. I throw it onto my bed and scream, then that's when the aggression kicks in, I grab anything in sight and smash anything I'm able to ruin including the last thing my mom gave me, I don't feel regret until after. But the regret quickly goes away when I see his Jersey, I don't understand where this anger is coming from. I pick up his jersey and throw it across the room. I go for another glass things but someone's arms wrap around me. They feel unfamiliar, I look and see Camila but I don't care she wraps her arms tighter and I sob into her arms,

"Camila, help me!" I scream and she nods while gently rubbing my head. "I need him!" The pain goes all through my body as I fall to the floor. Camila kisses my forehead and whispers in my ear,

"You'll get him back my love, I promise." I sob more and slowly drift to sleep in her arms, I hear one last thing before I drift to sleep but I'm not sure if it was just my imagination so I brush it off.

BENNY'S POV

I watch as Jasmine leaves the sandlot with her brother. I feel the pain wrench through me knowing I hurt her, I promised myself I would never hurt her and I failed, but it seems as though she is moving on so it's something I actually have to do too. I look at Amanda and I can tell she's angry, "Amanda, my love, wait up-" she turns around and snaps,

"Benny I'm tired of this." I look at her confused and she laughs, " you know you still love her don't you lie to me dammit!" Her voice raises, I didn't think she noticed.

"Amanda I really don-" she shakes her head,

"Don't lie to yourself either Benny you know what I'm saying is true." She scoffs and leaves me standing there speechless. Once she is out of sight something wet touches my cheek, my first thought is rain, but then I realize I'm crying. Why though? I sigh and wipe my eyes, I walk out of the sandlot alone realizing all the boys left already, I walk slow to enjoy the time to actually be alone, I'm losing her and I can't do anything to stop it, I finally get to my house and I hear screaming and stuff smashing from next door, I look over curiously and see what I assumed is Jasmine's silhouette in her curtains smashing things. I raise my eyebrows and figure her brothers wouldn't want the person that is making her do that to come over so I walk inside my house, kiss my mom on the cheek and tell her good night. Once I'm in my room I flop onto my bed and think of everything that happened today. I sigh and feel sleep take over my body. Then I'm asleep.

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