It didn't matter how long ago it had been. It didn't matter if it even happened at all. Even if it were a dream, I still remembered it painfully vividly.
Her hand desperately reaching for mine as she was pulled away from me. Her sheer terror, amplified by the fate she knew all too well. The powerless we had both felt as I watched it unfold.
And then... her lifeless body, lying right in front of me, in a puddle of blood.
No one deserved this.
I didn't deserve to see her, the one I loved, die two times before my very eyes.
He didn't deserve to enjoy this despair, the despair he so vied for, laughing maniacally as he treated human life as though it were a mere child's plaything.
And she... she never deserved any of this. She did nothing wrong. She was just at the wrong place and the wrong time.
She did nothing wrong.
She did nothing wrong.
"SHE DID NOTHING WRONG!" I screamed, reaching out blindly and grasping onto the first thing I could -- thin fabric, probably a curtain. I couldn't see clearly, my vision was greatly compromised by the tears in my eyes. I was shaking hard, and could barely hold onto the curtain. Within moments, I lost all sense of strength, and my legs gave out. I crumpled to the ground, thankfully not bringing the curtain down with me, and continued to sob in a crumpled heap.
She...
"She did nothing wrong...," I repeated to myself, my voice trembling.
This wasn't the hope I'd been promised. This was just despair... raw, pure, and ugly despair.
To be the last student to wake up... only to be explained by complete strangers what had happened, that I had "died", that she had truly died....
I couldn't scream if I wanted to.
She...
No, not just a nameless "she"...
Chiaki Nanami... the Ultimate Gamer... and my friend...
Chiaki was gone forever... I never even got a chance to tell her... I never even got a chance to thank her...
I couldn't take it. I just couldn't take it anymore.
Memory loss, the Ultimate Despair, Junko Enoshima, and the loss of Chiaki...
It made my head reel.
It made me want to puke.
But, most of all... it made me wish I could go back in time. It made me wish I could relive those memories with Chiaki, so I had something more to remember her by than just a couple washed-up memories that were either modified or fake.
...Chiaki...
I couldn't hear her voice anymore. She wasn't there. She was never there.
No... she was there, she was definitely there at one point... but I lost her before I even knew it. I forgot that she was ever there, and by the time I remembered, it was much too late.
And somehow, as these thoughts crossed my mind, something rose up in my throat, bursting out.
"AAAAAAAAUUUUGH!" I screamed, reaching up and grabbing the curtain. I pulled it down in one motion, taking the curtain rod with it as well. Though the curtain rod fell hard on my back, I barely felt any pain... the pain I was enduring right now was bad enough, anyway.
Staring around, I blinked the tears out of my eyes. I wanted to destroy everything. I wanted to destroy whoever caused this to happen to us... no, to me... no, to her. I wanted to destroy all logic, whatever logic was left in this twisted, disgusting world... I wanted to destroy it, rip it apart, shred it to pieces, and feel its despair.
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FanfictionI have too many story ideas. This will be mostly fluff (I think??) but i have a habit of falling into the angst stuff so haha we'll see. Most of these are ship centered, yaaaay!~ Cover art not by me.
