The Cursed Light

chapter 5

The dark commons were silent, a thick fog of tension weighing the air. It had been a week after their tearful discussion of what to do about the curse and what they were going to do to try to get their lovers memories back. Things with the light sides were awkward and tense. Patton had requested that the dark sides join the group for every meal so that the light sides could keep a better eye on the darker aspects of Thomas’ personality. The dark sides sat huddled together on the couch in the light side's common room with a few of their books in front of them as they took notes on anything they could find. The light sides watched from the kitchen clearly waiting for them to fuck up.
    Patton was cooking while Roman and Logan whispered to each other. All three light side heads snapped towards the living room when the Dark sides started laughing. The trio shrunk into themselves when they noticed that the light sides were watching. Remus turned back to the book while Virgil watched Roman for a few seconds longer while Janus watched Patton while pretending to be on his phone.
    “Sorry,” Virgil muttered to the light sides.
    “It’s quite alright kiddo,” Patton said.
    “What are you three reading?” Logan asked.
    “Don’t worry about it Logan,” Vigil said.
    “Well now I am worried since it must just be some silly little book if you allow an idiot like Remus to touch it,” Logan said.
    “I’m not an idiot Logan,” Remus said, his voice barely audible.
    “I don’t think I was talking to you now was I, mistake,” Logan hissed.
    Remus flinched violently at that and Virgil glared, “Logan enough.”
    “No if he wants to interject then he shall listen to what I have to say,” Logan said.
    “Don’t start with me Logan,” Virgil growled.
    “Virgil, it’s fine. He’s right. I am a mistake,” Remus said and Logan felt his heart twist and felt sick when he heard Remus say this.
    “Remus-” Janus started.
    “No he’s right Jan. I’m a mistake. A waste of space. A freak. A fuck up,” Remus said.
    Logan felt like he was going to be sick hearing Remus talk about himself like this. He didn’t know why, but he felt like he had just made the worst mistake of his life. He watched as Remus slipped the ring he always wore off. The stunning emerald ring with white gold holding the stone. Remus slipped off the couch and walked over to Logan. Remus grabbed Logan’s wrist and lifted it. He dropped the ring in Logan’s open hand and closed the logical side's fingers around it.
    “Remus? What are you doing?” Virgil asked.
    “I give up Virgil. I can’t keep doing this to myself,” Remus said.
    “Remus why did you just give me your ring?” Logan asked careful to mask the storm of emotions he felt.
    “You’re smart Logan. Figure it out. But I’m just a mistake right Logan? Right? Nothing worthy of this ring. Not when you don’t remember giving it to me. Not when you don’t remember why I let you put it on me. Not when you don’t remember putting it on me. Now I’ll see myself out. You’ll find me if you remember why I never took it off and when you realize just how badly you just fucked up for me to take it off,” Remus ranted, upon finishing he sunk out as his fellow dark sides called after him.
    “Do you two know anything about what he just said?” Logan asked, his voice broken.
    “Nothing you’ll want to hear,” Janus said.
    Logan opened his hand and stared at the stunning ring in his hand. The emerald looked as if it was being held by an octopus. Logan fell to the ground as images flashed through his mind. Remus laughing as a child. Remus when they were teenagers and Logan was helping Thomas study while Remus talked to him. Remus smiling at him on their first date. Remus in his arms after a nightmare. Remus grinning at him with blood on his cheek. Memory after memory flashed through his mind. Remus saying yes when Logan proposed and letting Logan slide the ring onto his finger.
    “Logan!” Patton yelled rushing over.
    “What did he do to that ring?” Roman snapped.
    “Nothing. He would never do anything to that ring,” Virgil growled.
    “Logan are you alright?” Janus asked.
    “Remus,” Logan whispered while staring at the ring in his hand, “What have I done?”
    “Oh shit,” Virgil said.
    “Go find him. We’ll take care of this,” Janus said helping Logan up.
    “But-” Logan said.
    “Logan, he needs you. Go find him before you lose him forever,” Virgil said.
    “What do you mean?” Logan asked.
    “Well, if we couldn’t get you guys back we were just going to jump into the pit of the lost. He would come back but with no memories of us or you. You have to stop him or you won’t ever see your Remus again. It’ll be someone else wearing his face. You don’t want that. Now go,” Janus said.
    “He can’t,” Logan said and sank out as quickly as he could.
    Logan rushed towards the only place he could think Remus would go before destroying himself, the field where they had their first date. Their spot. Remus was sitting there in a black v-neck, a green jacket, black jeans, and green converse. The pit swirled in front of him. Tears stained his cheeks along with makeup. Logan ran towards him and tackled his beloved duke. Logan was sobbing and Remus instinctively wrapped his arms around the crying side.
    “I’ve got you Logie,” Remus whispered.
    “I’m so sorry Remus. I can’t even begin to express how much I hate myself for what I have done and said to you. I’m sorry. Please don’t leave me. I’m sorry. Let me make it up to you. I will do anything but please don’t leave me. You're not a mistake. Or a freak or a fuck up. I love you cephy so please don’t do this. I wish I could undo everything I’ve done Remus but I can’t. I’m sorry. I’ll say that everyday till the day we die. I’m sorry and I love you but I’m back and I’m not going anywhere ever again. I’m here. I love you so much,” Logan rambled while sobbing.
    “Logan,” Remus whispered in awe, “It’s really you. The real you. Please don’t hate yourself my love. It wasn’t your fault. It wasn’t you. Your back and I won’t leave. I love you so much Logan. My darling raven.”
    “Remus, do you still want to marry me?” Logan asked, his voice sounding broken.
    “I never stopped wanting to marry you my raven,” Remus said and held out his hand for Logan to put the ring back on his hand.
    “I love you Remus,” Logan said cupping his fiance’s cheek with his hand.
    “I love you too Logan,” Remus said leaning into his touch before pulling his love forward and kissing him softly.
    “We’re going to have to go back soon Cephy,” Logan murmured.
    “I know but we don’t have to yet,” Remus said kissing him again.
    “I didn’t say we did cephy,” Logan said resting his forehead on Remus.
    “I missed you my darling raven,” Remus said and snapped so that Logan was wearing more comfortable clothes.
    The logical side now wore dark blue jeans, a dark blue v-neck, one of Remus’ leather jackets, and black converse. He looked far more comfortable in his new outfit and nuzzled into Remus’ neck and kissed his fiance on the cheek. Remus waved his hand and accurate stars spread across the sky and the couple spent the next hour and a half talking and comforting each other. Remus explained what had happened and how fragile the situation was so they would have to be careful with everything.