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Prologue

John POV

My mind flashed back to what happened at New Bostin, at the Readjustment Center, what I did to my friends.

No! Never, I never want to go back to that time again! All the power I have I really don't  deserve any of it, maybe its best..... to just forget about that part of me....

"John! Are you okay?!"

I just realized that I was shaking and my cheeks felt wet.... wait... are these tears?

"It's about New Bostin isn't it?" She pulled me into a hug.

"John, you have to calm down, look at me." I slowly lifted my head up and met her amber eyes, eyes that are identical to mine.

"The past is the past, you do have to learn from it and then move on. Dwelling on it will just bring you more resentment and anger, but now its going to be directed to yourself."

"Maybe that's what I deserve, all this power was given to me.... but all I do with it is hurt others!"

I felt myself shake even more violently and dropped to my knees, tears spilled down my cheeks..."I want to forget, I just want to forget that I have an ability, I'll be a cripple and I'll have no way to hurt others."

"Then others will hurt you, isn't that how everything started? You were a cripple for 14 years and the weight of the hierarchy crushed you and your friends, you wanted revenge didn't you? By being able to stand above all the people that once belittled you. If you go into Wellston as a cripple, people will think its okay to hurt you, you'll feel trapped and it will end up exactly like New Bostin."

"Well then what the h*ll am I supposed to do!? I'm too powerful to pretend to be a mid-tier, and if I show my true potential, I'll turn into a tyrantical king again!"

There's no way, weak or strong, I just can't win.

"No you won't. A king is free to do whatever he wishes and can invoke fear and pain, or happiness and equality. At New Bostin, you wanted for the people once stronger than you to feel what it was like to be at the bottom, but which type of king would you want to be now?"

"O-obviously the second type....."

"Exactly, you've seen both sides of the coin now John, and you know what its like to be weak and powerful, reality is harsh, ecspecially for people like us...."

"But don't worry John, I'm sure you now have the power to control your ability and not let your ability control you, you've changed....."

Hi! This is my 2nd fanfic so its hopefully better than my first one and not as cringey lmao, btw there will be cursing in this fanfic but I've bleeped all of it out so it should be ok....

But anyways thanks for reading and I hope you have a wonderful rest of your day/night :)!!

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