Haikyuu BL Songfics.

-Compete- (SakuAtsu)

Kiyoomi Sakusa.

I've loved him for so long.

And I thought he did so too.

Until I heard you say and call out his name, when we were intertwined with one another.

I'm a fool.

Am I easily deceived by those words that you spew out of your lips?

Is that why you chose me?
Because I was an easy target for you to lie?

Am I nothing more than an object to pleasure yourself?

Am I just a toy to you?

Am I not enough as myself?
I've tried so hard to play by your rules, follow your needs and wants and I've completely changed my whole life and my ways just to be with you, losing myself multiple times along the path.

And this is what I get for doing so?

If you told me the truth firsthand, it wouldn't hurt as much as it does right now.

If you told me you've fallen out of love and that you've found someone new, you could've at least spared me from this outrageous heartbreak.

I once had thought I won the fight against him in loving you.

But was that just my imagination or was that just a lie?

But...

Even though I know you've made up your mind.

Even though you've chosen someone.

Someone that I jealously wish to be.

I don't have the strength to blame you at all.

I probably got boring or I probably did something that displeased you down along the lines right?

I'm sorry if I did so.

. . .

Why do I keep on fighting for him?

I know the outcome

I know the end.

I know who'll win.

And I know who'll lose.

Just look at me right now!

How many nights have I been waiting for you to text me?

How many nights do I lay awake only to be wishing for you by my side?

How many tears have I shed, realizing that it was all to good to be true now?

As much as your actions have destroyed me, and shattered my entire being, I still to this day, can never bring myself to hate you.

You keep on looking at me with those beautiful eyes, making me weak; making me wish that your eyes would only look at mine like that.

Your soft caressing touch comforts me and gives me warmth; having me wishing that I was the only one you'd share your body warmth with.

Your sweet words spilling from you lips, reassuring me and loving me with words only I wish to ever hear and keep to myself...

Was this all a lie?

Tell me, Sakusa.

Did you ever mean anything you did or say?
Or did you just love me out of pity?

Not only did I hear you moan out his name but I caught you in the act.

I saw you with him.
Yet you still come back, running to me.
But for what reason?

Why are you still giving me hope?

Why are you still here with me?

Why don't you be with him?
I know I can't compete.

I already had a feeling that I'd be the sore loser from day one.

Stop coming back to me.

Stop giving me mixed signals.

Stop returning.

Go away.

If you don't, then I will!!!

But I can't-
...Stop falling back... Into his arms...

Stop it...

Stop it.

STOP IT!!!!

Please stop...
It hurts.

But I can't let go.

Just one more night.
Just one more night.
Just... One more night.

One more dance.

One more night.

I completely have no idea what I just written down tbh.
But this is my first book and first fic on this acc, so I hope you enjoyed!

With love, Soba-chan ♡(*'ω｀*)/♡