Bond To You

Chapter 2

Aljun^^

If only me, I don't want to step on this place again. Anderson Pack, the place where I have so many memories that I will never forget both good and bad. I sighed knowing that I have to meet Him again. I really don't want to see him again because I do not know if I can control myself. But for my brother, my only sibling, the one I dreamed of to sleep and cuddle with every night in a bed ever since I can remember, i have to do it.

It really hurts to think that the  person you want to hug and  feel his warmth you will never get. I love my brother, I miss him very much.

We never once celebrate our birthday together. We were not twins but we shared the same birthday. I never once attend his birthday nor him to mine. We never blow the candles on our cake together nor cut the cake together and feed it to each other, give our gifts to each other face to face or greet happy birthday in person together. I miss Aljun very much.

I wiped the tears that flowed down my eyes that unconsciously dripping every time I remember all the painful things my brother and I went through.

I stopped the car on the side of the road near the meadow where once became our playground, me and him. I went out. Feel the cool breeze, smells the scent of the environment I really miss and let the cool air enter and pass in my constricted heart and lungs.

I sighed. Looking up to heaven and letting all the questions flow on my mind.

Why fate tormented us? Is that really how bad I am? that we can't be together not even a day or an hour that there is nothing or anything bad happen to one of us.

I'm tired.

Really!

Really tired!

Oh Goddess! What can I do to get everything back?

If only I could bring back that time.

If only I had the power to change everything. Power that I myself will record the destiny of anyones, that they will never experience such an unfortunate fate that we suffered by now.

I want to see my brother smiling widely,  his almost black eyes that I only seen in front of me on the mirror shining every time the moonlight shone for him. His unforced smiles and giggles every time he tells or whispers in my ears about his love life that we face each other holding hands or every time I tell him about mine.

When will be that time, oh Goddess. Please have mercy on their poor children of yours. Even if it is not for me, even just for my brother. It's too much for him, he had done nothing to experience all of this because of me.

Or, do you want my life in exchange for my brother's lively and healthy life Goddess? If it does,  I'm willing to give my life for him. He suffered enough for eighteen years of his life. Even if he's with our family except me, he still suffering more than enough that he almost give up.

After I let out all my thoughts and pleads to Her I went back to my car and continued driving on the bumpy roads between the meadow and the woods to the place where someone is waiting for me, my family.

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The guards immediately opened the gate as I stopped in front of the gateway of the pack and let me in when I told them who I am. I know they expected me so they did not hesitate to let me in and I know they smell me as one of the pack members, although I am not living here and considered myself as a lone wolf, the alpha still treated me as a member of this pack. My family is here. The pack treats me as a family and they to me.