Butterfly Effect [ATARAXIA #3]

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MADRIX VROOKE'S

"Are you okay? Mad?" Tito Ket asked. Pinatawag niya ako after he heard what happened between to me and Gant. Hanaplos ko ang leeg ko naramdaman ko ang hapdi nito.

"Gant, did that to you?" I slowly nodded. Tito Ket checked my wound.

"He's in rage." He uttered.

"He wants me to stay away from him," I mumbled. He took a deep sigh and tapped my shoulder.

"Mad sometimes, they are pushing us away not because they want us gone. Deep inside of them, they want us to stay with them." May kinuha siya sa drawer. "If you fall for him I'll never stop you like I'm doing to Ken. He's falling for Ellie and I'm supporting it. It against the rule but kung makakatulong naman sa kanila at sa 'inyo why not?" Inabot niya sa 'kin ang isang maliit na papel na may address. "I will give you two days' leave for a while. Go to this place and you will understand everything." Muli siyang humugot ng malalim na hininga. 

"Gant doesn't hate you. He hates the warmth and care you are giving to him." He added. 

"Why?" Tito Ket shows me a weak smile.

"Because Gant ended up losing his mind because of love." May kirot akong naramdaman. Love should give him comfort, not fear. "But I believe, Mad. Love can save him too. But it will not be going to be easy for you. So think deeply if you want to pursue—"

"Yes, Tito. I want. I want to fight for him and I'll help him." He nodded and tapped again my shoulder.

***

I caressed his hair. Gant is sleeping deeply they injected him with lorazepam a drug that will calm his system. Kita ang pagod sa mukha niya. Madami siyang sugat.

"Why are always hurting yourself?" I whispered. I trace his scars in his wrist. Tumayo na ako hindi ako pwedeng magtagal baka magising siya at magwala ulit pagnakita ako. I kissed his forehead bago lumabas. 

Tinignan ko ang binigay na address saakin ni Tito Ket at ang gate na nasa harap ko.

"B-bakit binigyan ako ng address ni tito ket ng sementeryo?" I mumbled to myself.

"Sir?" Napalingon ako sa tumawag sa akin. "May kailangan po kayo?" Pinakita ko ang address sa kanya. Tinignan naman niya ang papel.

"Dito po ba ang address na 'to?" 

"Oho sir. Dito nga ito ang sementeryo ng pamilyang Clarkson,"

"Clarkson?" He slowly nodded.

"Oho sir. Ako po ang namamahala sa lugar na'to. Lucas po ang pangalan ko"

"Ako po si Mad. K-kilala niyo  po si Gant mang Lucas?" Tumango ito.

"Sa kanya po ba ang hinahanap niyong libingan?" Napangunot ang noo ko.

"L-libingan?"

"Oho. Bata palang noong namatay si Señiorito Gant. Tara po ituturo ko po sinyo." Parang may kung anong pumipiga sa dibdib ko nang marinig 'yon. Tahimik kong sinundan si Mang Lucas. Hanggang sa huminto kami sa harap ng isang libingan. Hinarap ako ni Mang lucas.