[JUNGKOOK] Sweet and Bitter

The real you

'This ain't gonna work', I sigh in frustration.

The dark locks of sweaty hair slowly move away from his face, giving me a better view of his face that's weakly eyeing me. Hours of walk into literally the unknown and god knows how much more we're about to face.

'I'm fine, really', he breaths out unstably. I look at him in serious irritation, his stubbornness is headache. 'Jungkook, you can barely walk, you look extremely exhausted. Let's take a few minute break, please.'

He exhales deeply before parting his lips to speak, but then closes them again like he doesn't know how to respond. 'We can't risk your wound opening again', I add as a perfect argument.

Successfully Jungkook begins walking towards a tree trunk not far away from me. 'A few minutes, no more', he exclaims grumpily before taking a seat on it.

A grin of accomplishment crawls up on my lips. 'Thank you. Jeez you're really stubborn', I say while taking a seat next to him. The trunk is not the best, but better than the ground we've been laying on a few hours ago.

'You're not the only one who tells me that constantly', he chuckles softly while whipping away the sweat on his forehead with his dirty covered sleeves. I'm really wondering how I look like right now, I think I can scare someone away with my features at the moment.

'Let me guess, Jin?', I ask with a soft chuckle. I don't know them for that long, but clearly Jin is the one that criticises the behaviour of the younger ones. Jimin for example, that was flirting with me this morning.

A smile flashes on his face, while he leaves the air with silence for a while, before answering my question. 'Jin hyung for sure', he says with a playful grin.

'And deservedly, you have no idea what we used to do when we were younger', he says with a proud smile remembering the old memories.

Boys are boys. Boys do mischievous things. But I guess that these guys took it way farther to compare with other peers.

'What? What did you do?', I ask full of curiosity. It's just like listening to an old grandpa story, but then from a young hot criminal.
Jungkook runs his hand through his hair and looks at me with face that clearly tells me he used to do something really stupid.

'Uhm, you really wanna know that?', he asks with an awkward smile. I nod a firm yes as respond, before he takes a deep breath to begin the his story.

'Back when I was around 15/16 I used to live at Jin's apartment. He was kind enough to lend me a room to keep me off the streets, while all I had to do is don't skip school and behave properly as return. But of course I couldn't get myself out of trouble and broke rule number two', he tells me while I listen patiently.

My smile fades away. Off the streets? He used to be homeless?

The relax feeling of our fun chatter got replaced with a deep tensed feeling. He on the contrary seems very casual about it. I'm aching to ask him more about it, but I'm afraid I'll end up in an emotional field I'm not allowed to enter.

'What happened?', I ask him changing the subject of my thoughts. He clears his throat before excitingly continuing the story. 'So, one day when Jin hyung left for work I was home alone and bored so I decided to ask over my friends. Guests were by the way also forbidden to enter hyung's appartement. But of course I did it anyways. We had some drinks, watched tv and then suddenly creative thoughts came up in my mind.

Jin hyung always gave me an amount of money per month to do anything I wanted, except for drugs or other things like that. Which I didn't do of course', he says immediately to ensure his innocent position.

'So as a kid I spent it on especially games and most importantly fireworks. I was extremely obsessed with it, so this dumb idea popped up. I had that firework shooter thingy, you know', he says while scratching his neck and thinking deeply to describe with no missing details.

'Yeah yeah I know what you mean', I say helping him to continue his story. 'So, we planned to open the window and shoot them out, but uhm it didn't end up well', he says with a much quieter voice.

'What did you do?' He bites on his lower lip while looking away from my eyes. 'It kinda broke through some neighbour's window and almost burned down the whole place',he says innocently.

My eyes widen from his sudden answer. 'What on earth- I'm not even gonna comment on that', I say in disbelief before he bursts out in laughter.

Jin had a hard time keeping a problematic teen under control, but I didn't imagine it to be this. Besides all the firework stuff the story behind the fact that he lived on the streets interests me more.

'Jin was furious, wasn't he?' Jungkook again laughs out all his wobbly emotions. 'You should've seen his face. He was about to kill me', he continues giggling like crazy.

Despite the unusual end of the story a small smile forms in my lips when I quietly admire his face. His cheeks show off a red tinted colour while his adorable bunny teeth appear in his laughter.

'I wonder how he kept it out with you for so long', I chuckle. 'We got along pretty well. Jin hyung is different than all the other people I stayed with during some uh difficult times',his voice lowers down at the end of the sentence.

His warm smile fades away. I think old buried memories came up he didn't want to memorise.

'The difference was that he actually cared for me', he says quietly while finally daring to look in my eyes again. His glare shows the difficulty to hold his emotions he doesn't want to slip out.

It's a bad decision. I shouldn't ask. But my hunger for answers is too big to beat against compassion.

'What kind of difficult times? If I'm allowed to ask of course', I ask carefully in a quiet manner. There's a horrible moment of silence between our eye communication, before he clears his throat to speak.

'I'm not sure if I'm comfortable telling you that', he answers emotionless while breaking the eye contact and lowering his gaze to the ground. Great, I made him hate me more. I told myself not to ask him sensitive questions, but I didn't listen.

'I'm sorry, I shouldn't have asked you', I apologise immediately. He sighs with a deep exhale. 'Look, you don't know anything about me nor do I about you. We're total strangers Y/n, I don't blame you for asking me things.'

Strangers who saved each other's lives multiply, ran away, had arguments and even cuddled together.

'Of course, I don't know the real you. But I'm willing to get to know you', I answer more calm than expected. It's not a lie that I'm interested, but that's not all that matters right now. These memories I made with him these days will be remembered the rest of my life, I will remember him for the rest of my life and the rest of them.

And who knows how long this adventure will last.

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I don't know how to caption this. I don't know how long it has been, 5 days maybe? I really tried my best to post as soon as I could. As you can see it's basically a theory chapter. We'll continue with some action after ;)
Jungkook and Y/n have some serious bonding already hah.

BBYEz hunz🐬💙 (if you know you know)