him and i

chapter 5

I'm still in bed, this time watching Ferris Bueller's Day Off. I tried to fall asleep but I couldn't stop thinking about everything from earlier. It was also 9pm. Which is pretty early for me to be sleeping. So I just decided to eat and try to distract myself. Until I heard a knock at the door  

Me: "Go Away Finn!"

Sadie: "It's Sadie. Can I come in?"

Me: "oh, uh yeah" I open the door for her "wait did Finn put you up to this?" I ask before letting her in.

Sadie: "No I overheard you guys arguing. I got a little worried"

Me: "Oh, yeah that" I let Sadie in

Sadie: "so what's going on with you two?"

Me: "We were hanging out together but then his ex girlfriend was at the door and he told me he was gonna handle it outside while I waited inside so I waited inside. Then I look outside and they're making out with each other."

Sadie: "Did he tell you why he did that?"

Me: "Well.. he tried to but I ignored him"

Sadie: "Why don't you let him explain before you shut him out? Maybe there was a good reason why that happened."

Me: "There's never a good reason to cheat on someone."

Sadie: "But can you please talk to him. I don't want you guy's relationship to be ruined that quickly. Plus nothing will be resolved if you guys don't talk about it."

Me: "Sadie I really don't w-"

Sadie: "Please?"

Me: *sigh* "Yeah. Fine. I'll talk to him."

Sadie: "Thank you. Let me know what he says afterwards."

Me: "yeah sure.

Sadie leaves the room while I go outside and walk over to Finn's room and knock on his door.

Finn: "who is it"

Me: "It's Liv"

Finn answers the door

Finn: "Hey"

Me: "Hey. Can we talk?"

I sit down on his bed

Me: "So. Can you explain to me what happened that made you do what you did?"

Finn: "Okay. Basically I was talking to her telling her to go away and that I had a new girldriend right? But she kept on getting all close to me and she was touching on me a lot. I kept telling her to leave and I tried to get her hands off me but she continued to touch my chest and my hair and she tried touching my dick and she was saying inappropriate shit like she wanted to have sex with me and that she was gonna suck me off in front of you. I seriously tried to resist but she wouldn't let me. Then she grabbed the back of my head and kissed me. I didn't want to be kissed but she forced it on me. I'm honesty glad you saw because who knows what she would've done if you didn't. I obviously didn't mean for any of this to happen and I'm so sorry. I would never do that to you on purpose."

Fuck. I completely broke up with Finn when it wasn't even his fault. He basically got sexually assaulted and I told him off. I feel fucking horrible right now.

Me: "Finn I'm so sorry. I didn't know that was the situation at all. I thought you stopped loving me, or never did for that matter"

Finn: "I will never stop loving you. You're like my favorite person in the world"

Me: "I feel absolutely horrible"

Finn: "No don't blame yourself. I know how it looked from what you saw. It's not your fault for feeling that way"

Me: "Yeah but I should've at least let you explain instead of telling you off.. God, I'm such an asshole"

Finn: "You're not an asshole okay? You're not a bad person for feeling like that. Without context, I understand how it looks."

I hug him

Me: "I'm so sorry Finn." I pull away from the hug. "Are you alright?"

Finn: "Yes I'm fine. How are you?"

Me: "I'm good but all that matters is that you're good"

Finn: "I'm good baby. Wait. Is it okay that I call you that?"

Me: "Yes it's okay"

Finn: "So we're good?"

Me: "yes" I say with a smile

Finn: "Good" He says as he grabs you and forces you onto the bed with him. We both laugh about it and it's like everything is back to normal.

I'm kind of super relieved. I mean, of course I feel guilty about everything i said and the fact that he got sexually assaulted and I didn't pay him any mind or even give him a chance to explain, but I'm glad Sadie convinced me to talk it out with Finn. And I'm glad he's okay more than anything. I can't imagine what that must've felt like for him. At least we're all good now and I'm back in his arms where I feel the safest.

Finn put on some random indie movie no one's ever heard of but I don't care. Because I was with Finn. And that's all that matters to me.