Kuroo x Y/n fic

Chapter 9

You sat there frozen for a few minutes. Then what he said came crashing onto you to jump you. You started hyperventilating, "What? How? No, y-your wrong. Why? What? No. When?" You couldn't believe what you just heard. The officer sat you back down because you were pacing back and forth asking questions. 

He sighed and said, "This morning we got a call about a hotel client. Apparently he hasn't been paying for his stay and he was still there. So we went over there to check it out. We went up to the room and when they didn't open the door we busted in. And we saw Mr. Tetsuro there, on the ground." You listened in disbelief. "How?" you asked. 

The cop stared down, "Well... he was on the ground unconscious. The place smelled like a sewer. And he had bruises all on his arms which you could guess where that's from. I was one of the cops there so I saw it all." 

The reality of everything was just so much for you. You couldn't control your sobbing. It turned into screaming, in the back of the police station. All the cop could do was sit there and watch as your heart broke. You felt so guilty. "I should've paid more attention. Im so stupid. Why didn't I look for him?" and etc. 

The cop said, "So the official autopsy has concluded the death cause was drug overdose. I have an image of the scene. I'll allow you to see it if you'd want." You needed to see for yourself. You nod your head and he hands you a photograph. 

You stare at it, not being able to see it through your tears. You wipe your eyes and the picture becomes too clear. There he was, on the ground. His arms with needles and bruises and covered in his vomit. His body had a little decay, so clearly he's been there for at least a week. You wanted to throw up. But you just kept crying. 

It was really a lot for you take in. Your guilt grew more and more. You knew he was vulnerable, but you thought it was ok. You believed he was strong enough alone to handle whatever. You sat there, picture in your hands, sobbing. 

The cop spoke again, "Im sorry for your loss. Your free to leave if you'd like." You ran out the station to Kenma's dorm. The whole way there you were sobbing and getting stares. You didn't care. You felt like the whole world was ending. You reach his door and almost bust it from your knocks. 

He opens the door and looks shocked once he sees you. He tells you to come in and you tell him everything. And you show him the picture. Kenma had nothing. No sadness, not his usual monotone, nothing. Suddenly tears started streaming out his eyes, but he didn't let out a noise. 

Both of you sat there in silence, crying. You hugged him and he hugged you back. You spent the day with Kenma just crying at his dorm. 

You went back to your place at night and it hurt when you walked through the door. There was a piercing, sharp feeling in your chest. And you've managed to control your sobs on the way home. But you fell onto the floor, clutching your chest trying to rip your heart out. It hurt so bad. Your sobs could be heard throughout your apartment building. You laid there crying for hours. 

You eventually got up and went to Kuroo's room. Crawling in his bed brought many memories back. You laid there crying, hugging his pillow as if it was him. It really hurt. You eventually drifted off to sleep.