sequel - secret love life

faith

One day my life just fell apart because i lost tye one i loved.. and i didnt know how to feel.. i was broken sad and just really hurt. This chapter will be about my life dating calvin and then our split.

Nikita's p.o.v.

One day i remember getting in a few arguments with calv and it drove me crazy... i thought he had stopped loving me. I then asked him that night via a messaging app and he responded with 'Nikita i love you and i dont ever want to loose you.' This made me cry because nobody has ever cared for me this much. Well i think i spoke too soon that night.

A few hours later i found my self still crying my friends on the phone, my parents trying to make me smile. Too be honest it was nice but i had dumped calvin... because i told him i loved him back but about 10 minutes later he messaged me friends saying i was starting to annoy me. I asked him and he denied this.. besides the 100 times he lied to me, i couldnt get over this one.

I dumped him but seconds after i cried and couldnt stop. I was aching to hard it felt like my heart was in 1000 pieces and i couldnt do anything about it. That night i fell to sleep crying and him on my mind.

I woke up the next day feeling the need to cry, i stayed in bed and reread all our messages before getting a new message from him. He said he was sorry and wanted me back. But then i said i dont know about that right now... so ge kept calling himself a monster.

A month later

I was stupid enough to take him back... so i guess we were a couple again.. but this time no lies. Then he said well i have to be honest to you, i lied about my age because i thought if i told you i was younger then you wouldnt want to go out with me anymore. I started crying and i guess about 4 days later we broke up again. Because i couldnt help getting lied to by the boy i loved. The boy i put all my time and effort into. But that didnt matter to him, he broke my heart twice and that night he called me all kind of things and i guess i broke again. I wanted to die so badly.. but here i am still thinking about my ex and how i could stop hurting myself with the wrong man.

End of chapter extra

After i finished this chapter i couldnt help but feel my heart break again... i guess my love for him isnt going to end anytime soon. Its been 5-6 months now and i still miss him.. i dont know why and i dont know how. But what i do know is i need to stop it... im going to clean up my mess its 2015 and im going to stay single because i lost a lot of things.