MELTING DESIRE!, BAKUDEKU

V. FULL OF HEARTACHE.

A/N: I forgot to leave an authors note at the beginning of the last chapter, but the last chapter was also full of smut. But, there's no point in me telling you guys that when you've already read it. This chapter is a sad chapter by the way, so prepare yourselves for this one :(

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Bakugo stopped moving back and forth, but didn't pull out. He leant downwards and just as he was about to kiss Deku, he pulled away as quick as possible, afraid Deku would reach up and grab his face pulling him down to kiss him. He pulled out and quickly got up off the bed. He just couldn't bring himself to do it. It had to be perfect, but that's not why he couldn't kiss him... He couldn't do it out of fear.

Deku moaned one last time as Bakugo was pulling out. He then looked up at Bakugo with a concerned expression on his face. He didn't expect Bakugo to stop so quickly and he was hoping he would get kissed by him.

"W-What's wro-" Deku started to ask, but was cut off almost immediately when Bakugo started yelling at him for no reason. Since when did he ever give him a reason to yell though? That was Bakugo for you. The kid had anger issues and Deku was well aware of it.

"Shut the fuck up, damn Deku you fucking nerd! What the fuck did you think this was, huh? Huh?! This was nothing other than a hookup! I'm not gonna fucking kiss you like we're a couple or something!" Bakugo yelled. Usually Deku would get startled by Bakugo whenever he'd yell at him, but this time he didn't move an inch. He didn't even flinch. He just laid there staring at him, unable to find the right words.

Tears began to stream down Deku's face, but his facial expression remained the same. He kept his mouth shut. He knew if he were to try and speak then he'd only choke on his words to the point where he wouldn't even be able to try and pick out what he was saying himself.

"Tch." Bakugo quickly looked away, afraid he would give in to Deku. He felt bad, but he couldn't risk getting his heart broken. He knew Deku wasn't the type of person who would break his heart, but he also knew he wasn't fit for Deku. He wasn't fit for anyone. He wasn't cut out for that romance junk.

Bakugo expected Deku to yell at him and tell him to get out of his dorm or perhaps that's how he wanted Deku to react. He wanted Deku to forget about him, but that's pretty hard to do when you're living in the same dormitory. He wanted to turn Deku against him and to make him hate him, but that's not what he got. Not even close. Instead this is what he got...

"I'm sorry." Was all that Deku had said. He didn't stutter once which was pretty unusual for him. It's not that he stuttered a lot. He only really stuttered when he was nervous or when he was scared or when he was crying or when he was, well, you know...

How fucking pathetic can I get? Here I am afraid of getting my heart broken when the only thing I'm doing is breaking his heart. Who knew breaking his heart would break mine?, Bakugo thought, staring at the wall as tears stung his eyes. He blinked them away. He would never allow himself to cry in front of Deku or in front of anyone in that matter. He hated crying in front of people and he shouldn't be on the verge of tears right now. He was doing this to himself. He knew that.

"I hate you, Deku. I've always hated you. This night meant nothing to me just like how you mean nothing to me." Bakugo said. Deku brought his hands up to his chest and clenched it. It felt as if it would explode. More and more tears slid down his face until it got to the point where he was sobbing. Literally sobbing. He turned over to face the wall despite barely being able to move and tried to be as silent as possible while crying, but had no luck in doing so. His muffled cries were easily heard by Bakugo.

Bakugo clenched his fists. He felt as if he was gonna punch a hole right through the wall out of pure anger. He was angry at himself for hurting Deku. He just told him he hated him after he took away his virginity. He felt like a piece of shit.

Deku had his pillow and bed sheets drenched with tears. He brought his knees up to his chest slowly, ignoring the pain. He wrapped his arms around his knees as he hugged himself and buried his head into his knees.

Bakugo slowly looked back over in the direction Deku was in and hesitantly took a step forward. He stopped and took a deep breath before slowly approaching the bed. He was about to get on the bed and lay down next to him, but Deku quickly reached one hand back and grabbed ahold of Bakugo's wrist, stopping him. He looked back at him. He was a mess.

"Don't." Deku said. Deku's eyes were red and puffy from all of the crying he was doing. His cheeks were tear stained and his nose was running.

Bakugo stared at him without saying a word. Once Deku had loosened his grip around Bakugo's wrist, he slowly withdrew his arm and stood up straight.

"I should leave." Bakugo said. Deku should've seen this coming. He felt utterly stupid for thinking Bakugo had changed.

"I don't know what you're so upset about. You should've known this from the start." Bakugo said.

What the fuck am I saying?! Why do I keep putting him through this?! Can't I just shut up and leave?!, Bakugo thought.

"How the fuck did you expect me to know this from the start, Kacchan?! You said you were gonna leave, so leave!" Deku yelled. Bakugo was taken aback from Deku suddenly yelling at him out of nowhere which is something Deku never did.

"I said I should leave! I didn't say I was gonna le-" Bakugo started to say, but was cut off.

"Just leave already! Go! Haven't you tortured me enough?! Just please leave me alone!" Deku yelled, quickly going back to sulking. Bakugo wasn't mad. He knew he deserved to be yelled at.

"Fine, whatever." Bakugo mumbled to himself. He grabbed his clothes and quickly put them on before exiting Deku's dorm. Once Bakugo was gone, Deku began to screech. He felt as if someone had pulled his heart right out of his chest and stabbed it a million times. He was full on sobbing. He even found it hard to breathe. His heart felt as if it had been split in half. He felt as if he no longer had a heart.

Bakugo knew he would beat himself up over this. He hated himself for this. Deku never ever did anything to him and yet he treated him so poorly.

"You idiot!" Bakugo said to himself. He placed a hand on either side of his head and then pulled on his hair as hard as he could before allowing his arms to fall and hang on either side of him as he made his way back to his dorm.