Grab my hand, I'm drowning
I feel my heart pounding
Why haven't you found me yet?
I hold you so proudly
Traumas, they surround me
I wish you'd just love me back
Been a bit depressed today if I'm being completely honest... I feel so used and alone. I may feel happy for a moment but that moment is fleeting.
Why am I so fucked up?? I hate myself so much, yet I feel like I don't even deserve that. People only ever stick around to use me and once they're done, they just throw me away like the useless piece of shit I am.
Why can't anyone save me? Am I too far gone? Am I just that unlovable? Fuck you mom, and most of all, FUCK YOU DAD. EMOTIONALLY SCARRING YOUR OWN CHILD IS FUN ISNT IT?? DONT THINK JUST BECAUSE YOU'RE MY PARENTS DONT MEAN I LOVE YOU. IT DOESNT MEAN ILL EVER FORGIVE YOU!!!!
I'm breaking down and theres no one here...how surprising is it though, you're always there for them, but who's ever there for you? We're all truly alone in this world. People only want to use you.
Sexually abused. BY YOUR OWN FAMILY.
THE ONES YOURE SUPPOSED TO LOVE AND TRUST ARE ALWAYS THE ONES TO BE THE FIRST TO HURT YOU....
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Journal of a Random Teen
De TodoAll in the title hun, my journal through my, annoying, uneventful life. Enjoy! Probably won't have scheduled updates. It depends on how this does. Love ya!
