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Chapter 62

Hudson's POV:

I packed my stuff and went to the airport. Man, the taxi here is very expensive. My mind is full of thoughts and worries and I can't turn them off. I can't believe what I have to do right now. But I had to do this. It's for Ashley's good.

1 hour before the wedding I got a text from Monika again. She threatened to make this wedding a nightmare for Ashley. I didn't believe her until the peanut situation comes into my mind. She really could do it. I was afraid and asked her if there is anything I could do so she finally leaves her alone.

*Let's go back to Washington together and Ashley and her family would be in peace.* She texted and that's what I'm doing right now.

I'm on the flight. Flying back to Washington when I actually should right now say the yes word to my beloved. I can feel the pain she has right now finding out that the broom ran away from the altar. But I hope someday they understand. I try to get rid of this mind for now. It's hard and I'm struggling.

I close my eyes and try to move all the bad thoughts from my mind. Instead, I'm imagining myself and Ashley together at our wedding. She looks beautiful like always. We say the yes word and I'm allowed to kiss the bride. After the wedding, we go to a beautiful place. Just Ashley and I. There is nothing but a huge Meadow. She grabs my hand and walks forwards while I follow her. The sun is shining on her tanned skin and a cool breeze lets her curls move back. One curl is stuck in her face so I move it with my index finger. Ashley looks deep with her dark blue eyes in mine and says: "What have you done to me?"

As I cringe and wake up realizing it was all a dream I arrived in Washington. Now I feel worse than before for what I've done to her.

Ashley's POV:

I'm laying on my bed when I open my eyes. I might fell asleep. I had a very bad nightmare that Hudson didn't show up at the wedding. But when I stand up I see myself in the mirror. My makeup and hair look horrible. And then I realize it wasn't a nightmare but it really happened.

"Ashley?" Meredith says and opens the door of my bedroom lightly. When she sees me in from of the mirror she immediately hugs me.

"Oh, honey. I'm really sorry about what he has done to you. I feel bad for still being here and make your family angrier than yesterday." She says and cries. I start crying too.

"No, shut up. I need you the most. I don't care what they say you're staying as long as I need you here!" I say and she moves to look at me.

"You're one of the most important people in my life. I'm glad you still want me around after my brother did that to you. I apologize for him." She says still letting tears fall out of her pretty eyes. I hug her tightly.

Later we get off my makeup and I shower. When I get out Meredith is still in my room. She looks worried and I know she feels sorry about this. I go comfort her and try to change the subject.

"What did last night exactly happen? And how did I got here, I can't remember that?" I ask her.

"You fainted after Kerem told you that Hudson's missing. After 15 minutes you woke up but then Kerem carried you all the way home and I changed you." She tells me. Oh, Kerem must've been tired of carrying me. I should thank him later.

"Thank you... For everything." I say and hug her again. She has to bring her parents to the airport so I thought I'm coming with her. I'm broken and could cry all the time but I think I should at least tell them that it's not their fault and say goodbye. I don't know when I'm going to see them again.

I'm actually not in the mood to dress up so I just make a quick bun on my head and wear my mom jeans and a plain black shirt. When I see the shirt Hudson gave me last week to sleep with I have another breakdown. It's plain black and one of the rare plain colored shirts he has.

I grab and hold it on my chest while crying. When I smell the scent of him I hold it even tighter. I miss him. Why did he do this to me? I want to burn this shirt but I can't. I need more time. Later I put it back in my closet and in this second Meredith calls me to go to the airport.

At the airport, her parents and friends are feeling bad for me and I get a lot of hugs and apologies. But the only person that owes me an apology is Hudson. Nobody knows what happened to him but everyone gets it that he ran away and I feel embarrassed. I'm embarrassed by my side of the family, not his. His family is very understanding and nice.

"Ashley, I'm never going to forgive my son of myself for what he has done to you. I'm really sorry about this. I have no more courage to face you or your family. I totally understand their madness on us. I hope you will not become a trauma or something. You know I love you like my own daughter and I was happy to become you as my daughter-in-law. I'm sorry again." Marie-Anne cries and hugs me. I join her crying and hug her even tighter. I can't say a word. There is no voice left until we say goodbye.

When Meredith and I are on our way to the parking lot I feel very unwell. The second I see a big sign who says 'Toilet' I run in it and vomit. Meredith follows me and holds my hair back as always. When I'm done she doesn't hesitate to take me to the doctor.

After the doctor's appointment, he lets me wait until the results of the tests are coming. Meredith and I didn't tell anybody about it to not make my family worried.

The doctor appears in the room and smiles at us. That should mean everything is fine I guess and Meredith and I ease our minds.

"Congratulations, miss Yilmaz. You are pregnant!" He says.

The only thing I can hear is my heart beating fast.

... (to be continued)