This is my Past

My Best Friend

When I went through those struggles and challenges in life, I felt useless, helpless, like no one understood.

But then I met this one girl who had been through worse than me. She convinced me to stay alive, to stay strong.

I became best friends with this girl. We did anything and everything together.

I still remember our last memory together.

We decided to ditch school to go to her house to hang out and to make some homemade brownies. She ended up throwing an egg at me so I threw flour at her. It turned into a HUGE food fight. But then her parents came home and made us clean the mess up. It literally took forever. We shared one final hug before I had to go home.

The next day I texted her but she never answered.

I had to then babysit my little baby cousin.

When I got home, my mother asked me if I knew this kid. I said "Yeah, she's my best friend. Why?"

Turned out she had commited suicide after I went home the night before.

After I found that out, all I did for the next couple of weeks was sit in my room with the music blasting balling my eyes out. I went to her funeral and they played a recording of her singing her favorite song, Rolling in the Deep by Adele. Now I can't even listen to Adele without thinking of my friend and crying.

I had lost twelve of the most important people of my life that year. From April 1, 2013 to April 26, 2014. I lost most of my best friends, some uncles, and my grandfather and an aunt. I also lost some of my friends parents that I occationally talked to. It was one if the worst times of my life.

Please stay strong and never fall into that temptation. Just remember that people out there really do love you and I do to. So please stay strong. I love you.