Perfectly Damaged (GxG)

What Have I Done To Deserve This?

Natasha**

So far, I am doing well. I seriously did not expect her to accept my reasons, and for the fact that I killed a bunch of gunmen, and even listen to me but she did. My heart broke when how hurt she was when I told her I was lying to her.

I've pretty much said everything except that I am in love with her. Since I am confessing might as well confess everything.

Oh my god, Sofia, you're ruining my speech and I rehearsed this. I shouted and she just laughed.

Ok, ok continue. I rolled my eyes at her.

Well, since you pretty much approve of two girls dating, I'd have to shortcut my speech. I remarked with a smile, she smiled too. Her smile is the most beautiful thing in this world. It was probably the reason why I find impossible to resist her.

I already told you that it was never my plan to tell you, but I did because every day I stayed and spent time with you I felt myself getting pulled by you, I am starting to miss you when you weren't around, you make me feel things I never felt before Bella. I know it would be early to assume that I am in love with you but when I realized how scared I was thinking that you would hate me after I told you everything, I knew by then that I was in no doubt in love with you.

Uhm N-Nash, we've only known each other for several months, I mean are you sure? Plus, you have not moved on from Isabella yet.

Yes, I am.

Nash, I'm- I'm not sure. I mean, I don't know, maybe- Sofia replied struggling with her words. I placed my index finger on her lips to stop her.

Sofia, I completely understand. I'd rather you reject or accept me when you are one hundred percent sure. No pressure. I said then removing my finger from her lips, she didn't speak all she did was nod.

Thanks. She mumbled. I hugged her close to me.

Hey, hey, who told you that you could hug me? She questioned with a reprimanding look. I shrugged brushing it off.

I pulled back and looked intensely at her.

What? She asked. But all other senses have long failed, only the sense of sight. I cupped her cheek needing to feel her soft skin against mine, I gazed at her asking if that was ok, and when I saw no refusal, I leaned down. When she realized what I was about to do I expected her to push me away or cover her mouth, but she didn't. She tiptoed and closed her eyes. I smiled and pressed my lips against her.

It was a small kiss, and I didn't dare deepen it because I felt it was the right thing to do, it might sound cheesy, but I really wanted it to be something innocent and sweet.

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Sofia**

I felt light-headed and hundreds of butterflies fluttered inside my stomach. It's weird considering this wasn't my first kiss but when I compare the kiss with Natasha to my first kiss didn't feel like this at all, but it doesn't matter because this is the first time Natasha and I kissed.

She said she loved me, and I believe her, but I am not sure yet what I am feeling towards her, I am physically attracted to her, and I love her company, but I didn't want to rush it. I am thankful when she said that she understood, and I know I said I don't mind same-sex relationships but that doesn't mean that I want to be in one. I am not writing off the possibilities, but I am not sure if I'll be ready with that kind of setup since I have never been attracted to girls or ever considering dating one.

She pulled back smiling and I smiled back.

I made up my mind. She said resting her forehead with mine.

About what? She smirked. Her smirk usually annoys me, but this wasn't that time, I guess.

I am going to make you fall in love with me... no matter how long it takes. She said with determination clear in her eyes.

Really, now? I asked copying her smirk.

Uhuh! She said nodding and smiling. A big smile. I had never seen this smile before. A genuine smile, a smile I couldn't explain but it was different compared to her usual smirk and playful smile.

Sofia, you have no idea how happy I am right now. Even the biggest smile I can manage is not enough to show it.

I want to keep seeing the biggest smile you can manage. I replied while taking a peck on her cheek.