Mattia Imagines °extended°

Naked

For a good five minutes I've been in the bathroom sitting on the toilet (not using it) thinking and freaking out about what's about to happen.

Just a few minutes ago Mattia and I were on his bed, making out like any other couple. When he lifted my shirt up a bit I kinda freaked out and told him I needed to go to the bathroom.

The whole sex thing is not really a problem. I lost my virginity back in freshman year with my boyfriend then. The problem is me getting naked in front of Mattia. I know it sounds crazy but it's reason why that's a problem.

Back in freshman year when I was dating a guy named Malcolm, our relationship lasted for a good four months. I was in love with him but unfortunately he wasn't in love with me.

The pain was a lot and I was depressed for awhile. By me being depressed I was eating a lot and didn't realize it until I looked at myself in the mirror. I was shocked by how much weight I gained and I put myself on a diet and workout everyday.

Then I was about 130 then I gained weight to become 190. I lost that weight and became 160. I don't know exactly how much I am now but I'm not the size I was then. I'm insecure about my body and I'm afraid that Mattia might not like my body also.

Two knocks at the door made me jump. I looked at the door and Mattia knocked again.

"Babe are you okay in there?" He asked.

My body was shaking and I took a deep breath before responding.

"Yeah," I said realizing my voice was a bit cracky.

"Are you sick, do you want me to take you home?".

"No no I'm fine,".

"Are you having female problems, my mom probably has some pads or whatever-,".

"No no I don't need a pad,".

"Then what then? You've been in there for almost ten min-....... babe if you don't want to have sex you could've just said so. I don't want to make you feel like you have to,".

I don't want to tell him the reason why because it's already embarrassing enough. I don't want to lie and to have the same thing happen again so ima just go for it.

"I do want to have sex with you but....,".

I was starting to second guess my decision. I just sat there biting my nails.

"But what y/n. I'm sure whatever it is we can talk about it just tell me.....please,".

I closed my eyes and took a deep deep breath. Every negative thought were just hitting me left from right, making me feel like I shouldn't say it.

"Is it that bad for you to not say it?".

"I'm insecure about my body and I'm afraid to be naked in front of...you,".

There was a long silence and already I regret saying it.

"You shouldn't be insecure about your body because your beauitful. You shouldn't think about what other people might say and just be happy and I know other girls will kill to have a body like yours. Nobody will have the perfect body, the reason people are shaped the way they are is because that's what makes them who they are. Your body makes you and your beautiful the way you are,".

I took a few seconds to take in what Mattia just said. All the nerves that were built up inside me, suddenly went away.

"Now can my beautiful girlfriend please come out,".

I stood stumbling because my foot fell asleep. I shook my foot until the tingling went away then unlocked the door, opening it.

Mattia stood in front of me giving me a soft smile. I smiled back at him, giving him a tight hug.

"I love you," I said.

"I love you more babe,".

We hugged for a few more seconds and I felt him kiss the top of my head.

"Lets take a few picture and make these bitches jealous," he said.

"Okay," I laughed.

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Also I just wanted to say quickly Mattia made an apology on is Instagram and if you have read it then what's your opinion on it? Do you forgive him?

You can comment if you want and if you didn't see his post or w.e comment if you want me to upload ss