Kaimon: shattered love

How it all started

Kai's pov:

"i already told you, i want to go." i said to damon, who was exhausted about our 'fight'. "You are a literal psychopath. even worse than me, and that's pretty bad. you should be lucky that you even got out of YOUR prison world. Bon would have left you there, without me you would still be stuck in 1994 prison world! the least thing i can do is keep you here under my eye so you won't just go and kill your family. " he half-yelled to me." fine. but where do i sleep? " i asked, since it's 11.30pm and i'm tired." there is no way in hell i'm gonna let you go and snoop around my house when i'm sleeping and stefan is at elena's house. you're sleeping on my room. " he said, which didn't suprise me. i know that i am a psycho who no one would ever trust. while i thinked about that, i felt a warm tear on my cheek. what?! how-? i quickly whiped it off but damon saw it. "uh you alright? he asked with kinda concerned look on his face. he wiped it off quickly tho, we doesn’t care a crap about me, and i know it. that makes me even more sad, but why? " yeah sure" i said while forcing smile on my face. "okey" he said smirk on his face, heading to the bathroom to wash his teeth. he looks kinda ho- no. no, no, no. what is happening to me? is this normal?

*while later*

Damon's pov:

i came back to my bedroom, seeing that kai was standing next to the bed, looking miserable. but why? i thought that he was heartless monster. i looked at him for a moment, and he noticed it. he looked right into my eyes and shaked his head. if i only knew what he was thinking. wait what? what do i care, i am damon salvatore, the bad guy. "You ready go to bed?" i asked with sarcastic voice. he nodded his head, and i noticed that he was already changed his clothes to blach sweatpant and to white t-shirt. kai headed to bed pulling blanket over his head. i started to change my clothes.

kai's pov:

when he started to change his clothes, i couldn't help but stare at him. i don't really know why. he was so perfect with his night dark hair, muslcular body and  handsome smirk. gladly he didn't notice that i started, it would've been weird. he laid back down right beside me. "night" he said while turning that i faces his back. "night.." i said weakly when he turned the light off. what is wrong with me? Al i can feel is pain and insecurity. but why, and right now? i haven't felt anything since- no. i've always felt something. there weren't a moment when i wasn't feeling something, sometimes just stronger than sometimes. weird now that you think about it. this doesn’t help me though, i did all my horrible actions knowing what i was doing. i am just pure evil, and i don't like it. i set up, and heard that damon was asleep. i walked in the bathroom and started crying. really, crying? i haven't cry since 2010, and it was just one year back then. now it was almost hysterical, but quiet. i don't want anyone to know. i quickly reached to the  locker above the sink, and grabbed a razor. i was just so anxietied and i didn't know any way to get out of it. also, i did this a lot when i was a teenager, hated by my father and whole family. i knew exactly what to do, which was kinda sad itself. i pulled the razor to my hand, and let it slide and help me to get better. and so i did. it helped me for a moment, and i knew that it wasn't gonna last long, so i cleaned up and went to bed, so i could fall asleep before it would get worse again. but first i changed my shirt to one with long sleeves, as usually. after that i fell asleep.

damon's pov:

i woke up smelling blood. at first, i didn't think anything about it, unless i saw kai sleeping beside me. he looked so peaceful and adorable, but that's not my point. who did he kill?! well, maybe i'm just hungry and smell the bloodbags from downstairs? i got up from the bed and get to brush my teeth. after i was done, i saw a blood drip on the floor. ok that's it. who did he kill, for real? i was supposed to look that he didn't kil anyone. "KAI!!" i yelled annoyed and walked into the room he was in. "what.." he mumbled, clearly confused. "who did you kill in my bathroom?" i said keeping my rage in line. "huh? no one." he said still confused looking, getting up of the bed. i noticed his long sleeves, and thinked why he had changed his clothes, but not really gave attention to that. "are you sure, because i saw blood drip on the floor, and can actually smell blood in that moment too" he said sarcastic smile on his face.

kai's pov

in that moment i realized that he most have smelling my blood, because that cut didn't heal at all over one night. damn, i'm kinda screwed. before i could even say anything, he vamp speeded me to the back of the room, pinning me in the wall. "DON'T LIE TO ME" he screamed, while looking deep into my eyes. i didn't say anything, i just started into his ocean blue eyes, unavaible to think anything. out of nowhere, he kissed me. damon salvatore kissed me. wow. i kissed him back, still being pinned in the wall, i set my feet into his waist, when he vamp speeded me to his bed. he ripped his shirt off, and signaled me to do the same. but, i can't.. why did i screw everything up again? he was unbottoming his pants, when he realized that i was just sitting. "what's wrong?" he asked with a little bit of worry on his face. i just sitte, i unavaible to say anything. "don't you want this?" he asked. and at that moment i felt really bad. maybe i'll figure some excuse later. right now all i want is him. i nodded, and started to kiss him pationally, when he ripped my clothes off. he was on top of me, ready to come in. and so he did. i've never been with a guy before, and this was so different. i took a deep breath in pain, but also being very satisfied. he found my climax very fast, and i think that he noticed it himself too.

Damon's pov:

i heard how kai moaned very very quietly, and i wanted to be harder but i was scared of hurting him. after we were finished, i told him that i didn't want to hurt him. "no, let it all in" kai smirked, holding his hand. "in that case.." i said and hopped in top of him, again. i did it so hard, that i was kinda scared from him. but not for long, because these slow and quiet moans told me that he enjoyed as much as i did. when we finished, he was the first one who walked in shower, or almost ran to there. it was weird, but none of my business to be honest. i went showering to downstairs, because kai used my bathroom.

*20 minutes later*

i was ready, all cleaned up, hair brushed and clothes changed. kai wasn't ready, which was also a little weird, but maybe he just is that kind of people. shower was closed though, so it wouldn't take much longer for him either. i headed back to my room and changed my sheets. i saw red blood spot on it, and i remembered that i never found out why there was blood, and who's blood it was.

kai's pov:

i was been ready about 10 minutes now, but i couldn't find my shirt. i must have lefted it in damon's room. shit, again. "damon" i asked quietly, kinda hoping that he wouldn't hear it. soon i heard knock on my door. "yeah?" damon asked, with low voice. "could you pass me my shirt" i asked weakly, which made me really nervous, i don't know why. maybe, because i just fucked the perfect ion. me? looking like this? no way.. i am screwed up, all of me is. and i felt the tear on my cheek again. ugh, i already hate emotions. funny, hate is an emotin too, isn't it? "sure" he answered, and i jumped a little because i couldn't remember what i asked, since i was so deep in my out thoughts. i opened a little of tee door, and damon handed a shirt to me. it didn't have sleeves. shit. "can i bother you a little" i asked with shy voice. "yeah, what is it?" he sighted. "could you please give me a shirt with sleeves?" i asked avoiding his eyes, while the door was still open a little. he didn't say anything, just handed the shirt to me.

Damon's pov:

i handed the shirt with SLEEVES to kai. the fact that he asked it, didn't bother me, but why did he wanted sleeves? why was he holding his hand? who's blood was in my sheets? all these questons ran inside my head, until i came back when kai opened the door and smiled a little to me. "what's up with sleeves?" i asked with smirking. "oh, nothing. i'm just cold" he said, heading to downstairs with forced smile on his face. it didn't seem real to me, but what do i care? he is just one night stand, right?

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